Our Story Of~

2009-07-19T01:28:00.001+08:00

=) Juz as wat my laogong said.. We are getting married le..! And both of our parents know too~! And of cuz, juz like wat my laogong had said.. it will remain a mystery to all 1st.. ;-) It's ok to have disputes.. although both of us dun like it, but it's inevitable de. It's alright too! So we can understand each other more from different point of view.

My dear laogong had juz got his 5 Years Good Service Award on the 1st July'09! Im so proud of him! Jiayou laogong~! Keep up the good work ya!? =)

And we are going to genting on dis aug after he come back from his End Of Tour Brunei.. i've bought the coach tickets from Five Star in golden mile, 2-way tickets, $65 each. And we've booked the hotel room from First World Hotel too! on the 5th night we'll be making our way up to Genting~ im so excited.. actually go anywhere also can.. just can be with laogong jiu hao le.. =)

I hope to spend my time fruitfully with laogong in his 10 days disembarkation leave.. but i know maybe some times i cant, cuz just nice during his leave i've got a presentation to present on the 14th Aug.. -_-" hope laogong will understand and i knew he will.. =) anyway we'll be together physically at last! No long countdowns after tat.. He'll be staying by my side... Lovely~

I LOVE YOU LAOGONG...! no matter what... Thanks for your everything~! I miss you so so so much~! Another 15 days~

永远爱你的老婆。。

Final Phase

2009-07-18T04:53:00.002+08:00

Been quite some time since i last posted an entry.
Like laopo's previous post, everythings back to normal and even much better.
I'm glad that the tide is over.. I'm really happy =D
Anyway, this is the final phase.

My end of tour date has been logged in by Lakiun Camp, and is being confirmed
with HRSC. I'm coming back to Singapore for good on the 3rd of August 2009!
Counting down from now, it's just like 16 days?? However, this remaining days
in Brunei is not easy for me yet. Will be going through lots of paper clarifications,
as well as work loads as I'm preparing to hand over all my appointments here.

Will be working day and night, to ensure things are in good hand when I hand
over to MSG Ho. He's a really nice guy, and if not for his willingness to extend
his tour on my behalf, I wouldn't be able to end my tour as early. Really thanks
alot MSG Ho. Throughout my 1 and a half year career tour here, he's been
really taking good care of me. Often visit me to ensure that nothing goes wrong.
He taught me alot, shared alot of experiences with me. I really appreciate all
that he has done for me, contributed and sacrificed in order to give me his blessings.

I'll be having my 10 days disembarkation leave once i touch down in sg. 10 days..
not too long, not too short either. Will have lots to settle back in sg too. Will need
to go shop for our wedding bands, confirm and book reservation with our ROM
venue, get our own queen size bed and basic furnitures, as well as to get myself
a car. And then, we have our trip to Genting Highland from the 5th of August
till the 8th of August. Has already booked a Superior Deluxe Room with
First World Hotel. It was a great offer as the room is huge and well furnished,
but at a discounted price. Hope Laopo will enjoy this trip, and get away from her
busy schedules.

The BIG EVENT that we are both looking forward to will be our ROM solemnisation.
Venue will still remain a mystery to all of you people, until we decide to announce it.
Will also be going down to book an appointment with our wedding package provider
to try out on gowns, and suits as well as arrange to rom make up. I cant believe that
this is coming so soon.

Just hope that laopo wun take it to heart when we have some disputes and
disagreements during plannings and discussions. Afterall, it's inevictable to not have
any arguments through the planning phase. All we need is to understand each
others' point of view, opinion and share our thoughts. Nothing is impossible for
us. I strongly believe that our love will tide through all waves and tides, because
we are willing to compromise for each other, sacrifice for each other. All in all, it's
our LOVE for each other.

After our ROM, we will be starting to plan for our banquet. In fact, we've already
started out on sourcing for banquet quotations, venues and packages. Alot to
consider, and its gonna be tough. Need to come up with a budget, guest list, guest
seating plan, as well as many other hidden hinges. Jiayou~ this is our wedding!

This time round, I'll be really back in sg, and not flying off again. I know laopo's
happy that I've done so much, to prove my love for her. And she's so silly, keep
thanking me for putting her happiness on my top priority. Afterall, i am just doing
my part and duty as her hubby... I promised, i'll love her with all my heart, and
bring her happiness. I'm still firm at this, because my love for her has never faded.
NEVER!! =)

I'm rather stressed up at the moment with my final work load. This handing/taking
over phase is real tough. When i say real tough, you have got to believe me. ITS REAL
TOUGH!! But its the last final 16 days.. and i know i have to hang on, pull through,
before i can really have a piece of mind and enjoy my time back in sg. I hope laopo
will understand, and not feel neglected. I just wanna bring my career tour to a perfect
ending, and to clear my responsibility here, ensuring that things are in good shape
before i hand over to MSG Ho.

At the end of the day, I'm finally gonna reunite with all that i have lost since i was
posted over to Lakiun Camp. Going back to SG and be with laopo and my family is
the thing that I've always been looking forward to. This time round, not only am i
going back for good, but also to march th aisle with laopo, and say 'I do'.

I hope people out there, friends and relatives will give us your blessings. Thanks
everyone who's part of my life, as well as hers, thanks for being there with her
when i was not. Thanks for being able to care for her when i was not. Thanks!

Finally, to laopo... I love you, not because of your beauty. I love you not because of
your any physical criteria. I love you not because of any other reason, other then,

I LOVE YOU...

I misses u alot, and I assure you, you're not neglected. I reassure my love for you,
by ending this post with the simplest words of my thoughts...

Laopo, through all the times, my love for you has never changed. Should one day
a problem arises between us, fear not, for my heart will forever be with you. Till the
day I die, I give you my all, hoping that with the slightest reason, i'll be able to put
a smile on you. Laopo, I Love You~

永远爱你的老公。。。

2009-06-29T04:30:00.000+08:00

So long... din update our blog. thanz laogong for updating too!

things had been settled. everything's back on track and even better! i have my laogong and my laogong have me! thanz so much laogong for holding mi on so so so tight! he loves mi alot, cares for mi alot, worried for mi alot, really alot..

Remembering the days we got tgt.. during our secondary days, we came to know each other in e same class. initially, of cuz we r not close. until ya, my eng, maths n science is sort of poor, teacher put him to sit tgt wif mi n sort of 'tuition' mi. hahaha.. tat was when we were sec 1.. we were close, n during 'reading period', he would sit beside mi, always slping. whenever teacher walked pass, im e one waking him up. days pass, i like him first de. hahaha. cuz he's so cute! i think tat time when he knew tat i like him, he tried to avoid mi. kinda sad.. lol.. then, during sec 2 one of e days, his sis called mi, asked mi whether i like juntai, im shock! n said yes~ she asked mi, whether can i be his gf? even shocked! n i said YES too! haha. we enjoyed the times we got tgt.. sending mi to sch, cyling, having gathering wif his band members, celebrate valentines wif ai and guorong. after a year plus, some1 took away my heart from him. we broke off.. from wat he said, we'll be frens. but he scolded mi, i cried, i hated him. 'i die die oso will never be tgt wif him agn!' hahaha.. after sometime during sec 4 n 5, we did talk like normal fren. he asked for a patch several times, but still a no no thing to mi.

we graduate. went our seperate ways. during my poly life as n when he still got call mi as my hp number din change at all. but everytime he called mi, his hp number is different de. once i saw him on the road riding with another girl. thought tat,' thats good, you've got a girlfren.' i was happy for him.. =) until the days before he went to brunei for his work, he smsed mi invited mi to his farewell bbq. i wanted to go. but i cant due to my shift work in kkh. so he specially met up with mi in 888, the place where is near both our house. in a way, quite funny, cuz after so long, we din met up n chat. still remembered i had a coconut onli and he ate wanton mee and his fav coke. during his trip in brunei, we sometimes did webcam when both of us are online.

he came back his home leave during june'08, we did met up too with our sec frens.. sometimes he ride mi to n fro from work. i acc him to shop around in sg. still rem we went to far east making e caps, e shopkeeper guy told him,'she haven get married ma, so you still have the chance.' hahaha.. and he'll always say,' no la, ppl is getting rom already.' when he wan to touch up his tattoo, i acc him too, for 4-5 hrs. i oso dunno why im willing to wait, hahaha.. mayb juz curious to see how a tattoo is to be done. days pass, and its time for him to get back to brunei. tat last nite we went to sing wif our sec frens. he ask mi to rub his ankle cuz pain. without sec thoughts, i juz rubbed for him. after ktv and chong pang for nasi lemak, we went back home on his bike. it was 4 plus am, damn cold. he held my hands, shocked~ i took away my hands when weng's car was beside us. i tried not to think so much~ guorong and i went to send him off that early morning. we had mac for breakfast in airport and he left.. in e bus on our way home wif gr, i was kinda sad.. i dunno why.. every bits and pieces of memories puzzled up together.. made mi think of juntai. i cried~ hahaha.. i keep telling myself, 'yes, it was his sending mi to n fro from work wif his bike tat i miss. i juz acc him to shop around as a friend. dun think so much...'

everything is somehow fated~ guorong came n chat wif mi...... and we get back tgt!! so after tat you all knew wat happen le.. ;) [please refer to the achives after sept'08.]

1 month back. we've overcome a big, huge, so high wall.. it is really a big test for the both of us.. things past and its over~ i've learnt my mistake. im sorry.. we are going to let it pass and move on! but still, hope time will heal everything. i still cry sometimes when i tot of wat i did.. im juz sorry...

Anyway! We are fine! so happy being together!! my laogong get along so well wif my family. his family n mine had met up together for dinner for quite a few times, which includes mi n him of cuz, his and my parents, my 2 sisters, his sister and bro-in-law and chanel (his niece). im really happy tat all of us get together so well~

Now juz waiting for laogong to come back for good from brunei! juz 32 days onli!! Jiayou Laogong!! I promise i'll never ever let you go. No empty promise. It's the last phase le. After that we'll be physically tgt agn and forever. And we'll start implementing on wat we should do le. Im really happy that we are back together... I Love You and I just Love you... Misses you so so so much... and that is why im writing this blog..

ps: 我爱你，老公!!

All that were being looked forward on...

2009-06-16T10:06:00.002+08:00

The final stage, 60 DAYS~ YES!!!

Laogong loves Laopo.. u know, i know.. =D
miss you so...

So in love with you

2009-05-19T18:06:00.007+08:00

SO IN LOVE WITH YOU (Original title: 世界为一的你 by 曹格)
Lyrics By: Laogong~

This is
Where our love story begins
Simple yet complicated yet moving
You are
The person who had changed my life
The future that lies ahead of us
Shining so bright
All the challenges that we had once gone through
All the downs all the blues
Miles apart but you’re standing so still
What would I do without you

I will always love you Baby
You’re my all my everything
I will give you my heart and soul
Till the end shall we hold on
I will always be there Baby
Be your all your everything
Hold me tight don’t ever let go
My heart is true
I’m so in love with you

Let us
Forget about those ugly pasts
Close your eyes and just reach out your hands
Then feel mine
Through love
We have leant to appreciate
It was not easy for us to
Be together
All the challenges that we had once gone through
All the downs all the blues
Miles apart but we’re standing so still
What would I do without you

I will climb the highest mountain
I will swim the deepest sea
I will give you my heart and soul
Till the end shall we hold on
I will always be there Baby
Be your all your everything
Hold me tight don’t ever let go
My heart is true
I’m so in love with you
Miles apart but you’re standing so still
What would I do without you
I will always love you Baby
You're my all my everything
I will give you my (Give you everything)
Now tell me you’ll never leave me
I will always love you Baby
Love your all your everything
Let us hold our hands together
We'll move forward
Towards our happiness

Hold me close don't ever let go
My heart is true
I’m so in love with
You

p.s: 我爱你，老婆！

Time will tell.

2009-05-17T01:02:00.002+08:00

Its now 1.02am, 17th May 2009.
I'm feeling excited. Cos in no more than 8 days, I'll be able to see laopo.
I have so much to tell her.. so much so much.. but i dun alwasy get the chance to
do so, because she's busy.. and i understand. I'm missing her alot nowadays..
there's nothing i can do to stop myself from it.. Laopo seldom smile to me anymore.
I love to see her smiling.. Only when i am back for good, then only will things be
better for us. I really need her... alot.. I wonder what would i be without her.

She's getting better le, but still coughing. I know she dun like drinking water,
but i still hope u'll drink more.. it will really ease the irritation. She has a new room
to herself now at home. No longer have to sleep in the study room anymore. And I'm
happy for her too.

Alot has changed, after since i came back to brunei in late Jan.. but one thing didnt,
thats my love for her.. it stand as still as an acient rock, acting as my life pillar to
move on each day. I'm looking forward to everything we planned. Picking me up
at the airport, sending her to work, fetching her from work, bangkok trip, clubbing
night.. i just wanna spend my every moment with her when i'm back. I just love her
too deeply. Its all in my heart... and its written on my face.

There's currently alot of things going on.. i dunno where to start picking up from.
All i could do is to look forward to my end of tour. I feel cold... being alone. I hate
this feeling of losing her someday. I fear losing her. I wanna prove to her that i will
move on and am able to take care of her, support her. I am not gonna be a loser!
I know just how well my personality is, and i wun allow that to happen.

Laopo, just bear with me, hang on tight with me.. wait for my return like how u
promised me. I need your encouragement... your support... I love you more than anything
in my life.. the best chapters were those with u.. and the worse, is the current, where
i get no warmth.. from no one.. I'm trying my very best, to give u my all. Trust me..
i will not let u down.. I know right now, all i can give u are words, and no action.
But i have no choice. U've gotta keep on loving me.. have faith in me, in us. Dun lose
hope, dun lose confidence. Dun forget about me, dun ignore me...

I love you... i really do...

i miss ur voice, ur smiles, ur hugs, ur kisses, ur smell, ur everything... i miss you!
You'll always be my Sweetest, Dearest, Cutest, Honey, 宝贝，Baby, Darling, Fiancee, Laopo!
And hope to always be your Sweetest, Dearest, Cutest, Honey, 宝贝, Baby. Darling,
Fiance, Laogong.... you're my precious... one and only love.. i love you forever..

countdown: 7 days, 8 hours, 15 minutes... Laopo... hopefully, u'll be counting down tgt with me..

Let's move on...

2009-05-14T04:01:00.002+08:00

Its been almost 4 months plus since I left my laopo, friends, and family..
Initially had no plans to return to Singapore.. However, I know that Laopo
needs me alot, especially when she's undergoing so much stress, struggling her
studies, work, and our relationship at the same time. Its been hard on her,
and I'm obliged to do something for her.

I love her alot, and she loves me too. Nothing would beat being able to hug her,
close to me and feeling each other's heart pounding as the clock ticks away..
This time round, for the first time, both of us knows clearly how hard it is to
maintain a long distance relationship, and how terrible it feels to not have
one another being physically around. I regret, for a mistake that I've made,
cost the both of us to suffer horribly. My decision to extend my tour was totally
wrong..

Not too late yet.. I've withdrawn my extension, the application has been approved
by my commander, direct superior, and supported by many of the warm stuffs
around in my camp. Thanks to all these people for encouraging me.. I'm giving up
on the amount of money that i could have earned, in exchane for our happiness..
I hope this time the choice I made is right... and would put an end to our sufferings.
Official email has been sent back to Singapore side, awaiting for their arrangement
and ro find a replacement. No results yet. However, My CO gauranteed me, that
something will be done, and he will push for my earliest possible opportunity to
end my tour.

Laopo's sick, I'm worried... running a mild fever at 37.3*C, sore throat, ear pain,
running nose. Yet still insist on working... after my tries to persuade her comes
to no avail, the only thing I could do was to tell her to Jiayou, and take care of
herself. I kinda feel that I'm useless, my Laopo's ill and there's nothing I'm
capable of to ease her pain. I cant even be there to hold her, keep her warm and
make her herbal tea. I cant even do a simple task, such as placing my hand on
her forehead to feel her body temperature. I'm a failure, for the first time in my
life, I feel so bad, so guilty..

It's 4.17am right now, date 14/05/2009. I'm still wide awake.. I just cant get to sleep.
The moment I close my eyes, laopo's image would appear crying, asking me to
hold her close... I cant bear to see that... I really cant..

Its about ten days from now before I touched down in Sg to spend quality time
with her.. as promised... I'm coming back to accompany laopo. Though number
of days that I'd be around with her is not long, I hope my effort doesnt goes
unnoticed... Wish that every moment spent with laopo, would be treasured and
appreciated... I've book air tix for us to fly over to Bangkok for a short vacation.
Hopefully, she'll be able to enjoy herself, and get away from her busy routine.

Laopo's been rather upset recently.. all because of a sinful me. I just cant seem to
understand her a lil more.. whats going on in me? Why just cant I spend a lil more
thought for her? Hmm... after days of self blaming and thinking, I'm finally able to
and WILL understand her current situation. Each day, I'll just sms her, reminding
her to take care of herself, take her meals and drink more water. Whether she reply
or not, doesn't matter much anymore. All i know is, she's able to read my sms, and
knows I'm somewhere caring bout her. I appreciate that even though she's tired,
she's spend sometime to msn with me, video cam, so that I'm able to see her. Even
if that's just a short few minutes, better then nothing... =)

I didn't dare call her when she's in the library, afraid of disturbing her studies...
I didn't dare call her when she's working, afraid that I'd get her into trouble...
I didn't really dare call her, afraid that she'll find me a nuisance if I call too much..

I promised her that whenever I'm around, I'll carry her handbag for her..
I promised her that I'll move on and not feel so moody...
I promised her that I'll kiss her even when we're just riding on the escalator..
I promised her that I'll hug her even when we're out in public..
I promised her that I'll not throw my temper at her ever again...
I promised her that I'll be back asap...
I promised her that I'll never do things that's gonna hurt myself again..

Promises.... are not meant to be broken... but to be kept...

I remember every single thing I've promised her before.. Because I love her so
much... that words can no longer describe. For laopo, I'm willing to do whatever it
takes, just to put a simple smile on her. I'm ready to sacrifice if I need to.. As long
as laopo's happy. I'm ready to take care of her for the rest of her life... until the day
she's gone, then am I allowed to die, because I wouldnt want her to be the one taking
care of me instead.

Ng Jun Tai... from today onwards, you'll have to prove that your love for Laopo is
real... Show her that you love her truthfully, faithfully, sincerely, wholeheartedly,
deeply, and its from the inside... Not just saying...

End of the day, who knows what will happen? It was all because of my one stupid,
damn wrong decision made, that has lead to laopo suffering without me around her.
I'm done with one word right now...

REGRET...

ps. I don't know when will u see this, but Laopo, you were right.. I wasn't
understanding enough.. I will from now on. All in all, we love one another, that's
why we're upset when we quarrelled. I'm sorry, for the tears I've made u cried..
will you forgive me, and await my return to reunite with u, probably for the rest
of our lives? Let us move on from where we are now and be find the happiness that
we once used to share.. I want you to know that, the only thing that I did right,

was choosing to love you...

<3> || I Love You... Love me too.. || <3>

Our Love, Unexplainable. . .

2009-04-25T10:11:00.005+08:00

When You Say Nothing At All

it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
try as I may, I could never explain
what I hear when you don't say a thing
the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me
the touch of ur hand, says you'll catch me, whenever I fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all

all day long, i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near, you cna drown out the crowd
try as they may, they can never define
what's been said, between your heart and mine
the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand, says you'll catch me, whenever i fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all

this is my first post on this blog, our story....

dunno where to start, but recently really really misses everything
back home... my family, my friends, and most most importantly,
my laopo... totally low morale, totally moodless... only until ytd night,
when i saw laopo through webcam since 9 days ago, did smile break
from my face..
i know she's busy, with lots of assignment and her part time job also..
i know she cares and she love me as much as i do, but i just cant help
feeling down when i dun hear her voice, see her smile...
there's lots of regrets now... why did i agreed to extend my tour,
why did i choose to leave her behind... is money really everything?
i knew that certain things, cant be bought using money...
our relationship, our trust, our love, our care, our faith for one another
all are priceless.. so whats the point of me trying to earn more? its
just purely because, i wanted to have more money so that i could
provide her with a better, quality life.
i just hope that whenever i misses her, i'm able to see her...
its useless browsing just pictures, for when i look through them,
what goes in my mind are just the fond memories we shared...
it makes me feel far worse, the loneliless i never felt before..

right now, all i can ask for, is time to pass on faster,
so that at the earliest time possible, i can see her again,
feel her again.. hug her, kisses her, peck her on the forehead...
i really misses her... we've really gone through lots to end up
being together.. its just unexplainable... how valuable is she and
our relationship to me...

laopo, i really misses u alot alot...
really love you alot alot...
dun worry though, as promised..
i'll move on from where i fell
and look forward to seeing u again.
i'd be happy enough, even if its just 5 minutes..

i love u.... i know....

Post Pt Edu Exam tiredness~

2009-04-20T15:03:00.002+08:00

Guess whr am i now?? im now in SIM library~~ so sleepy~ having 6 hrs of break! 6 pm den start my class.. thought of staying in library do and find books/research for my assignment de, but im so so SO sleepy~ will be out in the library soon to find a Condusive place to rest~ hahaha...
Been busy nowadays, mostly with my studies, sometimes going out wif my friends and neglecting dear laogong too... Hope he will try to understand and dun emo... Argh... still got 4 more assignments and 2 more exams to go till i end my this semester!! Jia You Xie Xinyi!!
posting up my Bday post soon in FB~ or here if im free~ =)

*huggies* to Laogong~

Transfered posts!

2009-03-29T02:02:00.003+08:00

Finally! Done transferring laogong's posts over to mine but still under his name~ Invited him as my next author of the blog!

Poor laogong.... Had been busy most of the days... So when is his "holiday"?? Will be in July... I'll be flying over!! =)

Poor me.... Keep reading and analysing Journal articles... Bored.... Assignments due date is coming up... Each after another.... Haiz.... Sometimes like no motivation to do... But dates is drawing near le... So Keep It Up Babe!! Jia You!!

Loves Grace~

Fever Tgt!

2009-03-09T16:58:00.002+08:00

Ytd Grace's temp spike up to 38.9 degree... In the afternoon after she woke up not feeling well le.. Tot went out walk walk would be more better... Who knows, more worse... Came back home, washed up, called laogong, took temp ---> 38.9 *faints*, msg you guys and laogong... Din took any medicine and slept... Woke up in the middle of the night 2am, hungry~~ Cuz i onli ate chee cheong fun, a barley kind of desert and a cup of tea the whole of ytd... Cook bee hoon soup.

After i ate that 3 hours, was a torture for me. Sometimes hot, then cold till shiver.. Hot again, sweating... Sleep supine on the bed, lateral or sitting upright... Headache, felt nauseating... Dehydrating... Imaginging who will bring mi to hospital... By taxi... Thinking that i went to TTSH to put on drip.. Will i be hospitalised? Will they hav enough hospital beds? If more worse, after CT brain or MRI found out something wrong with my brain.. Intubated.. Sleeping in Neuro ICU, taken care by SN David.. Deciding whether to go for op anot........... Till i saw my handphone the last time, it was 5 plus am... I went off to sleep...... ? Till just now 12 plus pm...

Woke up, saw laogong's msg... He's sick too, having fever 38.8 and sore throat... That's why he slept thruout ytd... Took my temp, 37.1... Going down!! Replied him to my current condition.. He called me, seen his MO le, took panadol and meds for sore throat, but not antibiotics... Replied to gx and weng's smses too... Im alright, thanz guys.... At that time was quite blur too... Went back to sleep agn... Woke up at 3 plus, msg laogong and told him to take his antibiotics if his fever not yet subside... and to contact mi after he woke up.... And my temp was 36.9!! ok~ Im alright....

Im worry bout Laogong le... Dunno how he is doing... He's still sleeping... Hope he'll be fine...

Loves From Grace~

Blog name change!

2009-03-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

Dear Friends, Cousins, Relatives or whoever who drop by and see my blog, as you know my blog url had change! (Ya, and i know you all see my blog wun tag one.. -_-") So just to combine our posts together~ We'll try our best to update something in ya~ Hugs!

-Greg and Grace-

Happy Valentines~

2009-02-17T01:58:00.005+08:00

Where I Went On Valentines Day..

To JB~

Grace, Nisha, Nurul, Jasmine.

To YCY's BBQ~

Grace, Chu Ai, Jie Ying.

Who's YCY? That guy with the flower on his head..

BBQ below YCY's blk in woodlands~

That night on the 13th, was the 1st night I really chat with my fiance after he went back to brunei this CNY.. He was so busy.. Cant blame him too~ =) Had sent a valentine's day card to him, self decorated the card abit too.. Promised me that he'll make up to me~ haha... Thanz kak Noreasah for your meal in JB.. Thanz YCY for your bbq n that little gathering.. Thanz the girl for the lily that she had dismantle her bouquet of lilies~ Thanz to laogong that you still loves me! *hugs* muack! I LOVES YOU TOO~

More Than Words

2009-02-14T01:12:00.002+08:00

MORE THAN WORDS

Saying I love you, Is not the words,I want to hear from you,

It's not that I want you,Not to say but if you only knew,

How easy, it would be to show me how you feel,

More than words,is all you have to do, to make it real,

Then you wouldn't have to say, that you love me,

Cause I'd already know,

What would you do, if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,That your love for me is real,

What would you say, if I took those words away,

Then you couldn't make things new,

Just by saying I love you,

It's more than words,It's more than what you say,

It's the things you do,oh yeah,

It's more than words, It's more than what you say,

It's the things you do,oh yeah,

Now that I've tried to,talk to you and make you understand,

All you have to do, is close your eyes,And just reach out your hands,

and touch me,Hold me close don't ever let me go,

More than words, is all I ever needed you to show,

Then you wouldn't have to say, that you love me,

Cause I'd already know,

Happy CNY '09

2009-02-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

Laogong's back and back to brunei~ Leaving me alone in singapore for 3 days le... Been crying so badly... Dunno when is it to get to see him... June or mayb July?? 4 or 5 mths later.......

Family Portraits

for more photos, pls look up on my facebook!

PS: Laogong... Really misses you so much... Trying to adapt back to the life without you again... We had a little arguement re that clubbing thingy.. I didnt meant to threaten you.. Just thought that since you going, and i've gt nothing to do, so juz thought that i also can go with chloe without following you... Sometimes its not that i want to stick to you, its just that your time spent in singapore is so limited, just wanna spent all my time with you... I keep having the thinking that you'll be going back to brunei real soon, so wanna acc you, spending time with you like there's no tomorrow... Im sorry that im selfish... But anyway its the past le... Laopo still loves You though! Im starting sch le... And you are getting busier n busier... Lets both of us work hard! But muz take best care of yourself ya... I promise I'll be loving you always.. Will not dui bu qi ni... You too ya? I love you~ muack...

My Goalz~

2009-01-09T12:13:00.003+08:00

My Goalz~

Be A Standard Ballroom Dancer. i've thought before of working towards this goal after i've got champion for my beginner waltz and tango. somehow find it quite unrealistic. i've got no potential partner and my dad surely wun allow me to. though it's my interest but it's confirm not wat i wan in future.

As A Model. watching those ladies walking on the runway. tempted me too. went to those model company before, but need to pay a price for my own portfolio first. anyway im short too. dun think im suitable for modelling.

Be a Nurse. yes i am now. doing my degree soon. sometimes im thinking whether should i take. is it wat i really wan? or is it just wanted to fulfil the dream of my dad that we'll hav a grad in our family? i dunno. i dun mind whether i've got a high position in nursing line. just be responsible in wat im doing. always wanted be happy and.....

Be A Lovable Wife Caring Mother. thanks for loving me who i am. accepting that im that blur and sometimes silly. im really not good at words. not to say those bombastic ones. sometimes might made you disappointed. i'll be loving you. so much. i've this strong maternal instinct. always prepared for a child. mayb in 2 years time? =)

~10 days to go~

2009-01-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas'08~

Happy New Year 2009 to Everyone!

My new year resolutions:

1. To have my own bedroom!

2. Own a durable lappy case and a bag for school

3. Study hard and pass my bach of nursing this year

4. Hope i wun spend so much (thinking able or shld i find a part time job?)

5. Save money pls!!

6. Will always be missing and loving Laogong~ huggies~

2008-12-19T22:27:00.003+08:00

Had been emoing this few days... Had cried... Been looking forward to Aug 2009 de, but it had now changed... But now, im fine... Really fine... Laogong had analysed and discussed with me regarding this... Ya, its true that he'll be earning alot more, 6 mths more of allowance from the date of aug when he suppose to come back... Then i thought why not, since im still studying till nov or dec '09... Discussed when he free to fly back in sg and when im free to fly over... We still will meet up... So we had agreed to it... Had really adjusted, getting used to, accepting the fact that he'll be back for good in 2010 feb or march time.... Xin ku ni le, laogong... Recently need to deal with his upcoming auditing in jan... Been stressing him alot... Luckily this few days he able to relax abit, out of his camp... Jiayou laogong!! Im really sorry, had not been a good laopo though... I love you darling baby laogong... Love me too k? =) I know you will....

Silly laogong... Indeed he's someone special... Sometimes will make me laugh till my eyes become smaller le... Sometimes will make me cry as and when like nobody business... Lol.... Still remember once when im working nite, having my break.. He told me something happen in his camp that day... Told me he might lose his life anytime... I din believe him initially, but he said till so true... Lol... I really cried immediately at that point in time... But really laogong, you really must take best care of yourself... You promise me before you'll be back in singapore again to take care of me and stayed by my side always... You must remember that ya... Misses you so much~ Loves from your darling baby laopo~ Hugs~ 31 more days to go!

GR left~ and Janet's ROM

2008-12-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

Congrats to Mr Ang Qinzhi and Janet Feng!

Had their solemisations done at the Fort Canning Registry of Marriage..

Her husband's nephew

ScN Rocks!

Sending Guo Rong off to Changi~

Please Take Good Care! We'll Be missing you!!

2008-12-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

Chanel's Full Month Celebration

Was at laogong's jie jie's hs from the late afternoon till 1am plus... Seen most of laogong's relatives... Intro me by his mum and dad to them... Some of them ask, "where is ah lu?" How I wish YOU was around with us~~ Sing at their's KTV room!! So nice~ no one fight mic with me!! Lol... His jie and jie fu sang so nice lo! Envious~ =) After chanel feeding time at 12 plus am den walk home, with laogong's mum and dad... So nice and sweet of them... Sent me till my blk's lift... Watching me enter the lift, going up then they left... Had really enjoyed my day... Getting to know his relatives [though abit mixed up with dunno who and who.. haha.. but still knew some of them~ =)] So miss you Laogong!! Loves~

Specially for you....

2008-12-07T07:05:00.000+08:00

Because

Because of you,
I'll always smile.
Wonder if you'll remember,
the times we spend together.
From long ago,
till we're twenty two,
I've never let you down.
Though I admit my temper sucks,
but those were in the past.
I've change a lot,
people can see,
I'm sure you too noticed.
But one thing I'm sure that has never changed,
my love for you remains.
I want you to smile,
I want you to know,
that I'll always be true.
There are times when I'm missing you much,
still never though of giving up.
This feeling of time and distance,
is also an experience.
Once we manage to overcome,
and there'll be jubilant.
My heart and my soul,
I give you my all,
because I love you so.
For you and me,
were meant to be,
this you've got to believe.
We came this far,
after that much,
people think we might not last.
My promise to you are as follows,
please spend time to read it through.

I'll give you happiness,
I'll make sure that happens.
I've loved you once,
I love you now,
I'll still be loving you forever.
I'll do anything I can,
upon my ability,
just to make you happy.
The words I said,
and things I do,
will always be for you.

Never ever leave me again,
I'll not be able to take the pain.
I promise to whoever it is,
I'll always protect you.
My love for you,
being so true,
I'll die,
if I lie.

Just bear in mind I'm working hard,
for our future soon to start.
I'll be back once my chores are done,
the first thing I'll do is to give you a hug.
For now till then,
till I'll see you again,
please take care of yourself.
If you fall sick,
I'll let you see,
the pain inflicts in me.
I guessed I've said enough,
and clear to let you know.
My arms are there,
always be there,
ready for you to hold.
Now Laopo you should know how much,
you actually mean to me.
You're someone special,
in my heart,
who I'll treasure forever.
And between now and then,
Till I'll see you again,
I'll be loving you,
Please love me too.

I love you......

~Laogong~

Thanks Laopo!

2008-12-04T11:28:00.000+08:00

Thanks Laopo for the G.U.E.S.S Watch...

Thanks Laopo for the D.I.Y Birthday Card...

Thanks Laopo for the Red Sotong...

Thanks Laopo for the Book of Memories...

Thanks Laopo for putting in so much effort...

Thanks Laopo for the sleepless nights she spent...

Thanks Laopo for the surprised she gave me...

Thanks Laopo for making me feel she was with me...

Thanks Laopo for loving me as much as I loved her...

Thanks Laopo for being understanding while I'm not around...

Thanks Laopo for not neglecting me...

Thanks Laopo for being morally supportive...

Thanks Laopo for waiting...

THANKS LAOPO!

~Jun Tai~

laogong's 22nd bday

2008-12-02T15:28:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to You

Happy Birthday to My Laogong~

Happy Birthday to You

Laogong recieved my scrapbook yesterday noon.. So happy... So scared the scrapbook will not reach there in time... My efforts finally paid off... Laogong loves my scrapbook alot... So miss him suddenly... So wanted to see his expression when he saw it...

He'd said so much things to me this very early morning... Touched and cried... =)

Laogong, I Love You~ Always...

Happy 22nd bday

2008-12-02T04:22:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Me

Happy Birthday to Jun Tai

Happy Birthday to Me

Thanks Laopo in sending over the presents.. *touched*

a "Guess" watch, red sotong and my Scrap book~~

~Jun Tai~

Terry's Wed

2008-12-01T03:13:00.007+08:00

Congratulations Roy and Fion Yuen!
Venue: Rasa Sentosa Resort

Had their solemnisation By the Sea

Had their Wedding Banquet in The Pavilion
When will be my turn?? Lol...

*uploading pics... pls wait...*

Laogong's 22nd Birthday Presents...

Really thanz to ah tan for passing the presents to my darling laogong on this particular day and wx for updating me...

"Guess" watch and Red sotong

PS: Laogong... Surprised that you've got these first by ah tan other then your "not yet recieved" scrapbook?? haha... Hope you like it... I love you Laogong~ Misses you alot... Remember you are not alone... You've got me, your Laopo... Muack...

Nurul's 21st

2008-11-29T23:52:00.001+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday Nurul!!

Went to her chalet in aloha changi.. Thanz to Kak Noreasah for driving us there! =) Gave her Body Shop vouchers cuz we really dunno wat to get for her~ hahaha...

Looking thru wat presents she has... A dress!! Sexy~~

Nurul and Grace

She was so busy entertaining her friends and relatives.. Predicted.. Last time i did mine also like that.. So we took pics ourself!

Finally, Nurul's appeared before we decided to go home! =)

Chanel's Birthday!!

2008-11-21T11:34:00.000+08:00

Chanel was Born on the 6 Nov 2008

Isnt she cute??

That day when Chanel was born, I was accompanying my laogong's mum to Thomson Med Centre for her check up with his cousin ling ling and ah ma too.. His sister was admitted to TMC before tat day, awaiting to deliver.. So after his mum check up, we went to novena to shop, shun bian waiting her to deliver, estimated time 7 or 8pm... Just we've step into novena square, his bro-in-law called, say Xerene delivering soon~~ Sweet~ When we reached TMC agn, saw Xerene wif her daughter beside her... Thats so sweet~ Video her n Chanel while pushing up to the ward..

Anyway this few weeks after laogong went back to brunei for his work, his mum and I had been contacting one another and wif ling ling too... Meet up for breakfast, went to Xerene's hs to see Chanel, out to cwp to walk around, eat dinner... Once it was ling ling bday, went to her hs wif laogong's mum.. Basically, met up wif most of his relatives le... *smile*

My dearest laogong still told his mum bout our plans?? So ya, his mum somehow "nag" to me that to not have our banquet in hotels, resturants is good enough, reason out wif mi.. why need a 5 room flat.. told mi dun let him go out of sg on his upcoming leave back in sg, cuz he'll spent alot.. hahha... It's something to be happy about~ she's concerning bout us?? *smile*

laogong's mum bday 31/10

2008-11-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

The past few days went to visit my laogong's mum in TMC.. But anyway tats not the main point.. It was her birthday on the 31 Oct... Went to buy a necklace from SK jewellery.. Quite nice and within my budget and recommand by the sales guy there...

Heard from laogong that she like the necklace and is wearing it le.. Happy~~

Yesterday i was sick, din went to my night shift work!! 55 dollars! Wasted.. If i still can walk, i'll sure go and work de.. And still need to spend $$ to see doctor.. But really no choice.. Too tired and restless to crawl to work le... Surprisely, his mum called mi!! So shocked.. Laogong only told her tat im sick.. And so she called mi... Ask me where am i, eaten le ma, ask mi to take care of myself..... So sweet of her right...

Anyway started on amoxicillin and prednisolone.. The tab for e antibiotics is so big!! Always need to pei yang mood to swallow.. If not will kena stuck in e throat den vomit... Lucky is only 1 tab 2 times a day, for 6 days...

Today went out with my grp of sec sch frens... While eating our sushi buffet, laogong's mum called mi... So surprised and nice of her... Ask mi, am i getting better.. Told her im ok le, not to worry, will take my meds de... Told her to take care of herself too due to the op.. Then talk bout tml to eat breakfast in 888 at round 10 plus... But nearly forget tml i got dental appt at 11am in NDC.. So to call her tml and tell her again... Anyway we've still got lots of chances to meet up, as we'll be contacting one another?? N she lives opp my blk only! =) Its so nice to get so close and click with his mum... Initially quite scared that his mum will not like mi... But now ok la~~ ;-) Happy~~

PS: Laogong... Though you are not around with me in sg, i'll still keep in contact with your mum de.. Will still care and love her like you did... =) I Loves and Misses you just as much as you did...

2008-10-23T01:23:00.031+08:00

The memorable and happy times we spent together..

9th Oct Sitting in guorong's car.. Awaiting baby to touch down singapore... Exciting! Looking forward too... Finally... This day, went to cwp walk around to meet his friend to take my white DELL lappy... so nice~~ Thanks Baby!! really appreciated! No fighting of lappy with my sister le!! Then went out with gene and sylvia, treat them to makan as promised.. After that, to KTV to celebrate guorong's birthday!! too bad e photos' not with me now... will upload again... =) Then time for the both of us... On his CB400 Superfour to Mustafa!! bought ya.. quite alot of daily necessities.. haha.. and a Samsung L100 camera for onli $209! these are e photos we took using dis cam.. straight after we bought.. ;)

10th Oct Went to sim lim square to buy my harddisk.. walk around... met up with gerald in the evening time, went to plaza sing to customize our ring from couples lab... then to the cathay to buy our NUM sandels! sweet~~ met up with his sister and brother in law too, to makan sakae sushi! my fav!! haha... ok..

walk around in e Wine atrium.. guess who we saw, our sec sch fren, li pei! so long din see her after our 'quarrel'.. ok, tats long ago thingy le... we are fine~ =) so anyway went together with them to this thai pub... its very interesting... at shenton way if im not wrong ya.. =)

photo took after our pubbing.. fr left, juntai, guorong, yongping, lester... so pathetic, tat i drank a cup of coke chivas onli... and i burped? and vomitted abit onli la... Paiseh...

11th Oct Went to bugis area, but before! it seems going to rain.. so stop at cwp walk around 1st.. went to find emily.. still remenber tat she said my baby 'Bengish'! haha... Then to take my specs from kkh, went to golden mile to buy our coach tics to genting, to mustafa again shop shop... bought a nike bag from dere too...

this is e mini carpark in mustafa...

After that went to Sembawang.. thought of going to guorong's bbq.. but so sorry, its start at 7pm.. so cant possibly make it, as we need to pack our stuffs to reach lavender by 10pm.. So dropped by Sun plaza to walk walk... =) Night falls, went back to wdl to pack our stuffs.. Met baby at our bus stop to take cab, with my parents acc mi down too... =0

awaiting for the coach to come.. transtar travel...

in the coach, writing baby's white card... =)

12th Oct Reach Genting!! its so damn cold.....

the model of the whole genting situated in 1st world hotel..

Grace, Gregory, Gerald.. the G3... haha...

Awaiting to check in our theme park hotel.. so walk around in first world plaza, took pictures den to this coffee bean in resort hotel and... Slack....

Ya, anyway took all sorts of funny pictures.. for more details pls refer to my friendster ya.. =)

Went Ripleys' Believe It or Not.... interesting! too bad gerald's not following us..

went shopping too... and bought these clothes, a cap and a belt.. just walk around in 1st world plaza... ;) that night thought of going down to KL to clubbing de... tats y i bought tat suit above... but somehow im kind of sick? whole body damn tired... kind of going to hav fever? so told baby to acc gerald... but anyway tat nite i hun hun chen chen de... see my bed, juz lie on it... watever baby said to mi, i oso blur blur de... woke up in the middle of the nite, quite fresh le, saw baby slping, so din went clubbing lo.. wash up, changed baju, tidy up the room.... sleep agn...

13th Oct Woke up in noon time.. To outdoor theme park!!

some space thingy.. so lame...

in the boat to dinosaurland!

went to play those carnival games.. spent quite alot.. and these are the bears we've got! =)

queuing up for the antique cars...

because of ya, too many passengers (bears), so ya, we need to sit in 2 antique cars.. =P

we've played archery..

they played flying coster, im not cuz kind of dizzy le, after the corkscrew and drop shot...

thats my bath tub and our stuffs la...

14th Oct Went walk around in genting agn.. tot of going down to KL de.. but its quite late le.. 3 plus pm...

outside outdoor themepark

thats the cap we bought! suit mi right?? ;)

he looks cute in this pic.. loves it!

went to sushi king for our brunch cum dinner..

thats how much we ate...

went to genting hotel, for this 2 hours ktv session..

our NUM sandels~~

Back to our hotel room... to... change my......... my aunt visit!! irritating~~~

ya.. did all sorts of role playing... haha.. *shake* "hey baby, are you ok??"

went back to our hotel after buying some snacks n sovenirs.. played poker card.. drink beers, for mi, of course jolly shandy la.. after tat i oso quite hot, so nice to sleep.. last day in Genting le... misses...

15th Oct Packing up our stuffs... Checking out hotel... decided not to go KL, cuz bring too much stuffs le.. quite ley chey..

they are so patriotic for msia national song!! haha.. kidding...

in the coach straight down to singapore, sun plaza..

Back to singapore.. quite wasted of our 1 whole day trip down to singapore.. so tiring.. somemore.. ya.. so not convenient... reach home at round 9 plus.. put our stuffs, changed and straight went to baby's sister house! no steamboat to eat.. but still got Wii to play!! =)

16th Oct Went in to JB holiday inn to shop shop.. made our red specs.. bought some games.. custom made our polo tee and t-shirt!! haha.. so nice... quickly rush back to singapore to have dinner with them! in ajisen!

den went back baby's home to take baby's bowling ball.. its so heavy!! 13 pounds! and now its in my house.. misses~

17th Oct Took our rings in amk hub.. walk around to wait for that guorong.. Met up with baby's frens for dinner steamboat in bugis... ate so much!! After that then to pub...

Happening.... Din know that he will propose to me that night... So shocked.. Started by a magic which i've seen before, thought that it was for the other fren to see.. but somehow saw something on his finger? then invite me to stand up.. Blured.. Knelt down in front of me.. OMG.. Hot!! When victor quieten down the crowd.. More irritating Hot!! So paiseh... Dunno wat he's talking too... Yu wu lun ci... haha... Anyway i did say "yes, i do.." So ya, im engaged and booked!! haha... Thanks to guo rong for videoing it down... Memorable...

Our Engagement Rings..
PS: Laogong, I Love You

2008-10-20T05:22:00.003+08:00

2.55am flight to Brunei... He left~~

baby's back! 9/10

2008-10-09T02:53:00.002+08:00

A few more hours... I will be able to see him~~ =)

Sentosa wif ai, gr

2008-09-28T02:45:00.019+08:00

Sentosa Trip 21 Sept 2008..

wanted to meet in e morning at 10 plus.. all thanks to guo rong wake up late.. sky turning cloudy... we reached harbor front at round 1 plus.. hav our brunch.. and proceed our way to SENTOSA!

on our way walking to e changing room in palawan beach

thinking whether to buy any frisbee or volley ball??

on our way walking to find our "perfect spot"!!

at last.. my tree again.. remember? any recollection from my previous post? haha..

the macho man!! Wu Rong Rong~~

Group photos. Grace, Ai, Guorong

Superman!

The Frisbee Tornament!! Presenting~~

Guo Rong and Chu ai

Grace and *JERK*

1st round: we won!! but no forfeit done to the other team..

2nd round: we won again!! poor guo rong do push up x10.. with me sitting on his back.. total weight! as you can see below, my leg is off the ground.. haha..

3rd round: change partner.. grace and guo rong, ai and *JERK*.. so our team lose.. conclusion is, because is guo rong.. so forfeit push up again x10.. with aiai on him...

we are so cek arh.. poor guo rong.... haha..

the jumping photos!!

on our way to shower~~

done showering!! clean and fresh!

on our way to sky train.. back to vivo.. to meet..

Yan Lee!!

Had our dinner at the Mussel Guy.. nice ambience.. dun felt like leaving... really a nice place to chill out...

PS: went to zoo and night safari yesterday.. will upload the photos again once i've recieve ya... Baby.. im so sorry... will not rack up the past again.. but still i misses you much!!! Loves you loads!! 11 more days to go!! Muacks....

Happy 20th birthday Xinyue

2008-09-18T04:25:00.004+08:00

Late post... Cynthia's 20th birthday on 7/9/08!! Gather in Benson's pub..

Grace, Cynthia, Eileen

the extra guy behind is benson..

Group Pic

All these photos' size too big.. cant upload in friendster.. lucky still can post here!! =)

ps: Baby shld be wondering why at this time im awake.. haha.. not to morning call you! haha... simply just auto wake up to reply your sms, go toilet... and to eat!! hungry~~ ate my mum's porridge and green bean soup and cereal with milk! haha.. im fasting... joking.. its definately cant apply to mi!! cant live without food!! lol..

Baby... I know you miss me, miss your bike, your friends, sister, misses everyone.. Just left 22 days and you'll be returning to singapore.. I miss you too.. just as much as you do... Loves you~~ *hugs*

2008-09-16T21:03:00.002+08:00

Yes!! My Leave had been approved!! Schedule is out.. black and white... so Happy~~ Looking forward for my baby's return.. Awaiting for him to come back...

Had a little dispute a few days back.. Cuz i've decided to go sentosa trip wif my ex jacks colleagues, tat includes him, on my post nite.. I was really pissed off when baby told mi tat, somethings its better for him not to know.. I love and respect him.. Thats why i wan him to know wat im doing here, though we are distance away.. Ya.. Initially thought tat its because of 'him', tats why he pissed off.. but thanz baby for trusting me... thanz baby for loving n caring me.. its because of my post nite.. scared i'll be tired straight after my work.. i understand too.. but i cant give up my nite allowance, definately!

After much considerations, dis few days raining, mayb busy in scn, scared too tired tat i cant tahan, so decided not to go sentosa trip.. Instaed just turn up for our dinner and hang around with them at night.. True enough, in the morning bout to handover, 2 admissions came in.. Nurul took 1 and I took 1.. i've gt 5 babies in hand and still haven write my report yet.. So, busy morning.. Always like that... Im so tired tat day.. Lucky din proceed to sentosa.. Anyway its raining too..

Ok.. Anyway, we are doing great and fine.. Talk things out and had clarified our doubts and thoughts..

The date of baby returning to singapore is drawing nearer and nearer.. counting down to 24 days! And silly him still come up with dunno wat schedule for his stay in singapore.. haha.. And ya every single day i will be spending time with baby... Really looking forward to... Everytime he calls mi Laopo.. its just so Sweet to hear.. I loves you Laogong~~

ps: Baby, i know you loves mi just like i did.. I know u dun wan mi to feel insecure.. I know you care bout mi.. but please dun call mi so often ya?? you hav so limited remittance and hav to use on other purposes.. try to cut down.... n i dun wan till e end of e mth i cant hear from you... You are the one whom i can rely and depend on.. Always be there for me.. I'll be alone waiting for you..

So short yet so long

2008-09-16T09:10:00.001+08:00

16th September 2008, Tuesday

Today's gonna be really really busy for me. Loads and tonnes of work to be done, yet I'm still updating my blog!! -_-"
As all can see, my blog skin has been changed, no longer as emo as before... no longer as saddist as before... no longer as lonely as before.. all because I'm not gonna be on my own again, as I have my Laopo with me, supporting me, motivating me, waiting for me, love me, care me... =) Making me the happiest person on earth, and at the same time, the most fortunate...

Had a little argument few days back, cos she's going to sentosa after her post night~ *faintz*
She was going with her bunch of ex-collegues, which also includes him... But I swear, I trust baby and am pissed off because she's going straight after post night.. I suggested she take the day off, so she could enjoy herself... but ya.... of cos she didn't want to as the allowance for night shift is high! End of the day, I compromise, leave the decision up to her, because I love and respect her...

Later on, she decided to give the sentosa trip a miss, and instead just turn up for the dinner... I know Baby just didnt want me to be worried... She loves me too... All after all, we're good, doing great and managing well. Had a good talk and ya, she knows what I'm thinking and I too know what she thought of...

Baby's been waking up as early as 3plus in the morning to gimme morning call, for the fear that i couldn't wake up on time to work. I'm really touched, sincerely touched... Never in my life has anyone persist on giving me morning calls at those wee hours.. She did... Though a million times i told her not to, she insisted... Once again, she loves me more then I could have expected. Silly her~~

Anyway, days are passing, time is flying... For all we know, its only another 24 days and I'll be back in Singapore... Looking forward, really.... The schedule I've come up with for my stay in Singapore... almost everyday spending with Baby... I've been away from her... and when I return, I'm gonna dedicate most of my time to her... She told me 'I need you'... That melts me... She calls me Laogong in her sweet gentle tone.... that melts me even more! To many out there, whatever she has done for me might be small deal... Buut to me, she means the whole world... simply because, she's waiting for me... alone~

p.s : Baby, I know u love me just like I do, I know u care bout me and want me to be the best in everything, but i really hope u'll stop giving me morning call because I dun wanna depend on u.... in stead, I'll let u depend on... rest assure, Laogong's gonna be always always be there for u =)
Love's all around, especially when u didnt realise... Just like me and her, G&G!

~Jun Tai~

9/9/08

2008-09-09T17:10:00.005+08:00

Sad to say, but Happy and Glad to know.. Gregory Ng Jun Tai and I are OFFICIALLY together le!! Cuz we think tat its time to announce?? Initially, Practically we are together but Theoratically we are not... Sounds a bit funny?? Rather draggy?? So thats why.. I've accepted him on this particular day~~ 09/09...

Though its my past rom date.. Like what my dear sister aiai said, the past is the past, look forward ger.. Thanks ai and yan for supporting behind mi~~

Sometimes i will think of him, feeling really sad and disappointed.. But anyway the past is the past.. Try not to think too much.. Really looking forward!! Pls dun rack up the past.. Im done with it~~

Ps: Baby.. Im happy to be with you~ though you are not here with me, but i can sense you are by my side, in my heart... For my sister wise, it just takes time for her to accept ya..

Loves You Loads.. Miss You Much.. *hugs*

COUNTING DOWN TO 30 DAYS~~

What else can I say??

2008-09-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

8th September 2008, Monday

Moment of silence again and yet again,
people changes rapidly I don't know what to say.
Even though I'm putting in my best,
why does the situation still remains the same?

Sometimes no doubt I'll start to think this way,
am I the damn culprit why her feelings changed?
Now that I've won her heart she keeps assuring me,
insecurity was the reason why this had to be.

Contradictions happened and someone starts to hint,
that she hated me so much wouldn't even talk to me.
I thought happiness was what should surround us,
only to find out that was wishful thinking on my part.

After so many rounds of playing hide and seek,
finally she came back to me with her love and care so deep.
I wouldn't want to share but it was so hurting,
Said I was fake and a big bad guy my forte was bragging!

I've put in effort I've put in time no matter how busy I am,
just to ensure she's happy though we're at different ends.
Now let me say this once again and announce it to the world,
Who I need and want to be with is none other then HER.

Allow me to make my promise and swear upon my life,
if I'd ever let her down, GOD please let me die.
Just to complete my vow I'll tell you people who she really is,
this girl who have touched my heart, is GRACE, SIA XIN YI.

~Jun Tai~

witness a 24 wks left..

2008-09-06T16:28:00.004+08:00

A call from Dr Melissa n Dr sharon @ 2.25am.. a 24 weeker baby born, grunting.. Came in to SCN for comfort care @ 3.15am.. relatives all came, crowd around baby, grieving.. went to assess baby, no... is foetus.. weigh 618gm, bluish looking, unable to see any chest rise n fall, auscultated very slow heart rate 40bpm, moniter cant pick up any pulse n oxygen level.. awaiting MO to come n clerk in.. 4am camay bring baby up to let e mum take a last look.. came down @ 4.30am, auscultate, no heart beat.......

Its a grieving scene... father of e baby crying~ maternal and paternal grandparents and relatives all so down~ grieving~ No one utter a sound... every1 left quietly except father n grandma..

Suddenly felt tat life is so fragile~

ps: please traesure your loves ones around you~

34 more days and counting down...

2008-09-04T13:48:00.001+08:00

4th September 2008, Thursday

Recently been rather busy... gotta work, gotta pei baby chat~~ quite stress also... buut still able to take it... People are complaining that my blog is too wordy. So from now on, I'll try K.I.S.S, which is keep it short simple.

Nothing much to update, also no new pictures to share. Just that I'm really looking forward to be back in Sg in oct... Miss her so much, miss my bike so much... Then my friend needs help also. KJ is troubled, shared her woes with me... think she reallt trust me alot... thanks her for the trust.

But it also hurts me in a way that my friend is suffering from stress and troubles.. how i want to help her as much... but my ability is just that much... =x

Next thing is Baby... sometime she emo, i also dunno why... then sometimes i emo... -_-" like hell of a taking turn thing... But like she said, we're both strong enough... jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

34 more days to go nia~ =)

*i miss my baby, love my baby.... *

~Jun Tai~

Emoing~~

2008-09-01T10:49:00.009+08:00

Dragged sylvia out for a walk!! so bored at home... its a SAT!! (2 days ago)
went orchard shopping.. so crowded.. stayed dere for 3 hours onli den back to woodlands..

went shop awhile, saw this camera bag!! its like so nice~ thinking whether to buy anot cuz its still $33.90 after discount.. so went to ajisen (its newly open in cwp!) to hav our dinner..

still thinking whether to buy anot.. went to all bags shops in cwp and take a look whether they sell this king of bag, so its either not likeable or its far too expensive!! and consulted baby too... haha.. in the end bought it..

actually it looks simple... but i just like it, cuz it looks so nice when its being carried by me, on baby's bike with baby's hp and wallet inside!! lol...

anyway, had been emoing this past few days.. mayb becuz i've been missing him too much?? sometimes expected something.. expected baby would call or msn mi tat very dayS, n will keep on looking at my phone juz to see his expected sms.. but somehow due to some circumstances, he cant?? sometimes i'll get angry and irritated for no reason?? i really will.. to the extend wanted to say tat, "lets stop smsing, tml i'll then msg you again..." just felt irritated!! mayb its oso becuz due to my menses, hormones changes.. haha.. but i had try my very best to understand him in his part.. working very hard.. getting tired.. not enough sleep.....

then i heard from my sister in july got 1 guy went to brunei, something happen to him *cross my finger*... its in the news.. so really afraid something will happen to him!! pls baby, take very best care of yourself k during your tour till next year... Promise?? =)

counting down 38 days!!

$$$$$

2008-08-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

Recently really fed up with money problems...

1stly, is my next year degree, bach of nursing.. gonna spend a lump sum of money for next yr.. saving in the process... saving AT LEAST 1K a mth till i quit my current job (its really not like mi..).. lucky my mum agreed to lend mi a small amt of money too.. planning to work part time next year too (tats of cuz!!), for my own daily survival.. need to work doubly hard den!! thinking tat after october, need to find part time job to work during off days?? like some1 else too.. haha...

2ndly, im not going for my kkh dinner n dance le.. cuz need to save!!! thinking tat dnd $30, hotel room to dress up $25 and plus dressing up like a magical character like a fairy (dis yr kkh theme is magical creations), so dunno need to spend how much le.. actually i've register my name.. but lucky mi, dere's charlene wanted to go hu will b replacing mi.. thanz dear... so for dis i've save another tini bit amt of money!! felt quite a bit upset too for not going, but its ok.. for money sake!! haha..

3rdly is my education scheme fr cpf board.. need to pay $100 a mth to my dad's cpf account.. initially wanted to defer e payment until after my degree de.. den i cant defer now becuz i still hav 5 months before i start sch!! so wanted to pay mthly $100 thru internet banking for 5 mths den ask for deferment, whr then i need to submit all my sch admissions thingy to cpf board... THEN!! kinda think so ley chey... discuss wif my dad.. might as well pay mthly $100 thru interbank giro n let dem deduct.. anyway its juz $100 a mth... but next year i still hav to get prepare a more $100 a mth..

Den lastly is my bank account!! went to update my bank book 2 days ago.. suddenly c my available balance onli left $600 plus, while my ledger balance still gt $1400 plus!! i noe $300 plus is debited to e genting.. but whr is e $400-$500 gone too??!! so stressed up 2 days ago.. keep thinking whr i've spent to.. until today, tat is juz now, went to posb bank n check whr's the money spent?? dey check out onli e amt of money $426 is being blocked, not deducted fr my bank acc yet, by dunno whr is it.. whereas, e genting $ 342 is deducted n is stated fr asia air genting.. quite abit relieved tat i noe my dis exact amt of money, so think mostly shld b fr e previous transaction fr genting.. so informed my baby.. anyway thanz baby for checking up.. its already cancelled, shld b unblocked in a few days time.. lets hope so.. felt quite abit uneasy to see my available balance so low... silly baby still wan to transfer mi the money 1st... haha.. so silly~ if e money is back, i need to transfer him back.. so ley chey.. its ok baby, e money will be back in no time.. thanz alot baby for offering.. but its ok, juz leave it ya... =)

ps: money is very impt to mi now!! pls try not to ask mi eat expensive food... ask mi out for WINDOW shopping k.. i think i can control now.. cuz today out shopping with my mum, i din buy anything!!! keep it up!! COUNTING DOWN 44 DAYS BABY!!

Sick and Emo~

2008-08-24T04:26:00.000+08:00

24th August 2008, Sunday

Am on duty.... feeling better from my sore throat, running nose and mild fever =) Baby was so worried la... I'm sorry... =x
It all started few days back when i was watching 'WANTED' with Roy back in our dorm... I ate 2 bottles of pringles, 1 whole packet of Wang Wang Xian Bei, and one can or cheese sticks one shot!!

Then the next day my throat started to itch a little... yet I carried on drinking and eating peanuts while playing chess and checkers upon the invitation on one of my colleagues. The very next day woke up with serious hang over, sore throat and running nose. Yesterday, fever developed. My whole body was so tired... But in order not to let baby worry too much, I talked on the phone with her, Msn with her.... Continue to sleep late even though she had wanted me to turn in early to rest my sick body.

Recently Baby has requested to talk lesser on phone because she wants me to have more rest, instead of sacrificing my sleep to accompany her. She loves me alot... But I too love her so much! I wanna talk to her, keep her away from the feelings of loneliness... I want her to feel my presence... That's why I'm sacrificing my sleep... I want her to be happy even though I'm not by her side. There are times when I see the sms she sent me, I immediately want to fly back..... I know I can't. I have to deal things the sensible way. It's a test, a test of time, distance and how strong the feeling is... I won't compromise my job... Without a stable job, I wouldn't be able to provide her with the kind of life we want. We have plans.... plenty of them. We'll work hard toward the common goal we set for right, Baby? I won't give up half way, you can't too...

Have already booked the hotel at Genting Highland. its confirmed that baby, me and Gerald are making our way up in October when Gerald and I are back in town for our home leave... Booking has been confirmed. So happy. We're finally going to Genting. My last trip was 12 years back. This time round I have Baby with me... =) So fortunate, feels so blissful...
On our way back from Genting, we'll also stop by KL, and JB for clubbing trips, shopping trips. I promise to get Baby a cushion for her to hug on when I'm away from her. She also suggested we make a set of spectacles, same design same colour.. but it has gotta look good on both of us.... Gerald and I will get our tattoo of friendship done in KL most probably..

Am so looking forward to the trip. The very next thing I'm really expecting is spending time with Baby and her two sisters. I'll be bringing them out for dinner, Ktv session, maybe bowling maybe ice skating... depends... But all after all, I just want to have a chance to understand them more, interact with them more.. vice versa...

It feels so great when Gene told me, 'actually I only dislike u like 10%' ..... that means its improving... The feeling of being disliked is really so so so so terrible... Been chatting with Baby on the phone, and her sister thru ebuddy... I'm really really putting in any effort I can to make everyone feels happy as well as easy... Hope one fine day, I'm appreciated... =)

p.s Everything I do, I do it for you~~ Baby.... countdown 46 days!! *Loves and Misses and Hugs and Kisses*

baby's 18/8

2008-08-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

Been toking to baby on the phone almost everyday... led him to hav slpless nites.. not enough rest.. so sorry.. miss him every now and then.. thanz baby for sacrificing his time wif mi.. he seems to be very busy nowadays.. so poor thing~~ plus not enough sleep..

a few days before my dad suddenly ask mi bout baby.. hinting tat to meet him for dinner.. kinda felt quite happy in a way, but stressed at e same time oso.. but baby's not around.. so wait till he come back den say ba.. mayb next yr Chinese new yr'09?? somehow i tot tat if really meet for dinner, kinda feel tat might be quite stress for baby.. but we'll c how den??

thanz baby for trying very hard to make everyone happy around us but not compromising baby's and mine.. (i've repeated wat he say..) sorry tat i cant give baby a promise or an answer at this point in time.. cuz i juz felt tat its not shi zai?? mayb after baby come back the picture of us might be more clearer? thanz baby for giving mi so much faith, trust and happiness!!

p.s: baby seems busy.. gonna take care of urself k?? if can, try not to tok on the phone so long ok.. i wan u to rest more too.. misses u loads!! loves~

Cute Cute stuffs!

2008-08-18T05:38:00.000+08:00

18th August 2008, Monday

Just happened to forgets bout this! This is so damn cute la!! Haha... hey I tell u, u guys really must must not miss this.... I swear its damn funny!!

This was the original of Alvin and the Chipmunks...

And this was the newer Version!! Haha~~ Photoshop by me and produce by me also.
Roy, Gerald, Gregory (from left to right)

Thats all folks!

~Jun Tai~

A side of me where no one knows

2008-08-18T04:07:00.000+08:00

18th August 2008, Monday

Yesterday (17/08/08) went off with Gerald and Roy. We found the white adidas track pants finally, and decided to get one each. Apart from that, I bought some iron-on flags of Singapore, Brunei, Thailand and Korea. I wanted to iron them on to my back pack de lo... but dun think it will stay there, need to sew as a double protection plan!! Haha... I also spent 41bucks on a red zippo lighter, and I really like it so much, I'm not gonna use it.. Haha...

Talked to baby almost everyday now. Don't want her to feel insecure. Its also because I missed here every now and then, so had to call her and talk to her, hear her sweet gentle voice. She's very sweet lo, midnight 3am call me to wake me up, knowing I have to start work at that kinda weird timings... sent me sms and sometimes want me to hang up cos she dun want me to have so little sleep. Actually before that I usually sleep latest by 1+am de lo... But now its different le... Cos its no more about me and myself. Its about US!

Baby also mentioned to me that her daddy hinted to meet me for dinner. I dunno what's gonna happen la, but currently the situation is, I'm not ard in sg. Gotta wait till Chinese New Year 09 le ba~~ Then there's gene and sylvia. I promised to take them out for dinner when I'm back in sg. Of cos all I want is to know them better, let them understand me more also. I dun want things to end up with only me and baby being happy, then the rest of the people around us all with sunken face... I'm trying very hard to make everyone happy, but not compromising baby's and mine.

It's really not easy to maintain a long distance relationship, but I'm not giving up!! I mean, with baby, I'm sure we'll be able to cross this obstacle and test of time and distance. Baby, jiayou!!

K la... enough of my craps... now, lets take a look at the cam whoring session back in my dorm...

*ignore the background, a lil messy...anyway main point is me doing the moves and stunts =) *

Hanging me mid air (difficulty ***)

Back slunt 45 degree ( dificculty **)

Balancing and posing (difficulty ***)

Doing push-up on a human vault (difficulty ***)

2 x flooring moves with Roy (difficulty ***)

This one's hard on Gerald, but still nice posing!!

This was my candid expression when I fell and knocked both my knees -_-"

See carefully, I'm supporting with only 2 hands as pivot points (difficulty ****)

That's Gerald and me, doing a mirror image (difficulty **)

Now This is Specially for Baby... Taekwondo 's Back Thrust (difficulty TBC)

How bout a Hand stand with legs split? (Difficulty ***)

And this is hard, windmill (difficulty ****)

Hand Stand Jumps (difficulty ****)

Thats what I wore, The new Adidas pants I bought!! =)

Kinda hard to explain what i'm trying to do (dificculty **)

This is real hard -_-" (difficulty *******)

Thats the end of my current post, hope I've taken everyone thru a journey of the UNKNOWN Grego... =) Have a nice day and thanks for viewing!

ps. baby seems like gonna fall sick le eh.. must take good care of urself ok? we'll talk every night, as much as we can. =) Love you always, Misses you lots, Owe u some hug and kisses too...

~Jun Tai~

Outing wif Sweeties 11/8/08

2008-08-12T18:22:00.013+08:00

Waking up in e early morning.. Went sun-tanning wif Camay!!

mine n camay's bag..

so sunny~~

mi n jasmine

eating in VIVO marche..

im "free" but reserved.. haha.. juz like im single but NOT available!!

jasmine n shenes both r "free"!!

outside marche

grace, jasmine, shenes n camay

taking pics wif moo moo~

shadows of sweeties~ guess whr i am??

a reflective image of us

nursies wif horsies!!

grace n nurul wif beautiful sunset~

nice fountain outside vivo!!

decided to go bugis street to shop!! our fav!! haha.. took bus dere.. shop till 9 plus pm!! so hungry.. so no choice but to eat macs ---->

pics took in toilet before us separating back to home!!

sweeties, i hav a wonderful day spent with u all.. so difficult for us to go out togather due to our shift work.. i really had a good time~~

Back in Action!

2008-08-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

9th August 2008, Saturday

First of all, Happy Birthday Singapore!! Singapore has been independent for 43 years as of today. From the old tiny island, to what it has transformed into today. As a Singaporean, I'm proud of her fast growing economy, the racial harmony, democratic society. I love my country and I hope everyone else too.

Coincidentally, today, 9th August also happens to be Shiming's Birthday. Everyone else were celebrating for him. He's drunk at the end of 1/2 hour... -_-" And the guys which includes Gerald, Roy, Jason, Lee Siang, Chee Keong and Elijah decided to perform a prank on him on this very special occasion. They carried him and his bed to the open space!!! OMG poor Shiming... He'll get the shock of his life when he wakes up! Lol....

Anyway, very busy past like 10 days. Didn't went for any off to town or so. Had this stupid Audit Check thing. One thing I'm really happy about is the approval of my Leave applied. My bloody boss didn't want to sign it initially. Almost had a dispute with him as it was my entitlement, not a privilege... But after the Audit Check, it was found that under my supervision and hard work, there are no discrepancies, surplus or major findings. =) So damn happy, sense of achievement...
That was when, my bloody boss signed my Leave Application happily, willingly... -_-"

My promise to Baby was to return for her, accompany her. I'm now sure that I'll be able to fulfil that promise... Happy!!! I know she must be very happy too... Genting, here we come!!!!
Baby gave me alot of motivation, love and concern. Understanding me as well. I love her alot as well... looking forward to my return.... =) 2 more months to go only! Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!!

I'm too tired to post a long post. Just wanna tell everyone, cherish what you have around you, the people, the things, events and all. I'm the HAPPIEST man in the world now. Baby, with ur love, ur support, I'm sure I need nothing else. You are my everything. I give my all to you... =)

BABY, AI SI NI LE

2008-08-06T18:00:00.003+08:00

Dis few days ma.. quite lax le.. not so stress?? haha..

on e 1st aug after my bbq, went back home.. sort of confronted by my dad.. as previously my dad din noe tat he n i seperated.. ask mi y dis n tat.. at 1st my mum told mi b4 not to let my dad noe so much, as he tot tat billy(my previous dear) is a responsible, hard working guy like wat he say b4 when our ROM cancelled, 'he's a good catch".. n my dad dun like ppl hu borrow money n watsoever gotta do wif money la.. so sort of dun wan to smash his impression of his.. juz let it b la.. but paper cant wrap fire, my dad sort of noe le, juz dunno e reason onli.. so he'd ask mi.. why, why n why?? no choice but to tell him la.. told him tat e money prob not secure, due to..... questioned mi y his family like tat, y he din plan or manage....... he sort of supported wat i say.. the thing im touched is my dad say, "hu will wan to let his daughter to marry some1 n suffer!"

but he did oso say bout baby.. cuz he still dunno him yet.. soo.. wait n c la..

anyway, it seems tat things happen juz too fast le.. seems not realistic?? yes, i really miss baby.. hoping for his return, waiting for him to come back, it'll seem more realistic den.. juz felt tat he might do wat i do to him in e past?? i think i've lost in trusting ppl le.. juz told him how i felt.. tats y till now i din accept.. so wait till he come back den say la.. trust, feeling, faith, love n happiness.

dis is wat he say to mi, "Grace Sia Xin Yi, I let u go once, but I promise to Never let u go again, no matter what. When we finally reached a dead end in our route, lets not seperate, lets hold our hands even more tighter, and make sure we cross that wall right in front, it'll be a new route after that"

Happy Missy DAy!!

2008-08-02T22:35:00.001+08:00

Happy Missy Day!! 1st Aug'08 Gathering @ East Coast Park Pit C31

startin up fire...

still take photos

still starting

its done!! gt food le!!

mi n shenes

2008-07-31T22:14:00.002+08:00

im very disappointed... dey dun understand how i feel.. yes, dey mayb hav their point of view.. but y cant dey juz put mi in their shoes?? if dey r really mi, wat will dey do or decide?? is it fair to mi?? wat do dey mean by let him to 'slowly let go'?? i dunno how to do to make him slowly let it go.. i think e onli we can do is ya, seperate...

yes, i noe, ya.. mayb i've or we've hav been draggy.. i mean, ya, no point le... i c no point liao.. past few days he called mi, yes of cuz i'll still pick up his phone.. but, as a status of a fren, tats wat he says oso.. but whenever he call, he'll still tok back bout e past.. say he tat few days, suddenly tot of mi, putting himself in my shoe.. he say he understand how i feel.. how in e past yrs he's too cared bout his family.. its not i not discouraging him to help his family, i mean he shld to how to manage his money wise?? saving a $50 to $100 isnt tat difficult?? rather spend the money on eating in geylang or whrever?? n lots of bits n pieces la.. i told him.. i've waited, given u time.. last 3yrs time to realise?? not enuff?? hinting, telling n tolearating, dere's still a limit to it.. i somehow find him so irrtated! wat i wan is not the PAST! yes, he oledi told mi how he felt, but its juz seems too late.. wat i wan is the FUTURE.. i've had enuff of the past.. ya, dere's love.. until now of cuz i still rem e past we've been togather.. 4 yrs.. 4 yrs relationship of cuz not easy to throw away.. but, on the other hand, im practical.. tats y im able to let go..

mayb ya, really juz b4 my ROM, i really really think hard..

its my fault too.. mayb dunno how to manage my relationship?? but come to think of it.. if i juz wan to tao hao my close ones n be fair to him, but izzit fair to mi den??

ya, im not being neutral now.. as ya, my baby still keeping in touch wif mi, wif calls, msn, webcam, sms n video calls.. but not my dear.. juz presume tat im being heartless or cruel or watever, i wan him to let go.. n work for his future... i dunno how to let him slowly let go, like wat my mum say.. i oso dunno wat to do like she say.. wif dear's thinking like tat, he'll think otherwise, if im not heartless enuff.. yes, juz assume tat im heartless la..

i've cried, ya again.. wif my really close 1 not supporting mi, rather den to hurt n stress mi? asking mi to think of his feelings, 4 yrs relationship, very difficult for him to let go.. den, hu would think of mi?? being fair to mi?? think of his feelings n be draggy?? explained n explained, i've had enuff!! cried, i've cried lots! countless..

i've no need to hide tat, now im close wif baby.. as in ya, we still contact each other.. seeing each other thru webcam.. making mi smile n laugh when im sad.. do all sorts of funny things he can think of.. i will miss him.. waiting for his return.. ya, not to hide.. but still like wat i say, i wun commit to any relationship, until i noe tat he's the 1, my husband... i noe tat im still young, y say so far like husband?? its not tat im eager to get married.. i've already prepare n waited.. 4 yrs n it turns out nothing.. im sick n tired of it..

2008-07-30T16:22:00.000+08:00

Gerald, We'll always support u!!

Jason, Roy, Me & Gerald, just right before I go on stage for my singing

Group photo, what a close bonding we have!?

That's the Lion Dance performance, I'm a supporting crew, beating the drum =)

Paying respect to the VIPs...

Adrian (head), Reagan (cymbals), Me (drum), Zul (tail), Jordan (cymbals)

On the stage.... so nervous!

The superstar finally sings, full of confidence =)

The entrance of performers, lead by Me, and two other singers

Do i look like some kind of superstar?? haha!!

Interacting with audience from different sides.

~Jun Tai~

Dear n Baby

2008-07-29T01:47:00.004+08:00

Baby?? Dear??

until today, i now den realise.... i very scared to commit, to start a new relationship... very scared it might happen e same thing in future again.. cant promise any1 anything.. juz wanna remain as it is.. ya, juz follows whr my heart brings mi to... =)

its not tat im stepping onto 2 boats at a time.. when im ready, i'll be juz standing on the shore waiting for either 1 of the boats to come n fetch mi.. n bring mi to a place call HAPPINESS..

Sing SIng Sing!!!

2008-07-28T17:35:00.001+08:00

26th July 2008, Saturday

Today has finally come. I'm going up on stage to perform a Chinese song tonight. Last night was on duty, so this morning after handed over, was damn tired and went to sleep straight after showering. When my phone finally rang at 2pm, it was the rehearsal before the actual thing in the evening. I woke up, and rushed over to where everyone else was at the MPC. When my name was announced and it was my turn to run through the song, I cocked up everything... My voice box was totally dry, closed, and couldn't project my voice at all. At that very moment when the Sound Engineer told me 'Mister, can you sing louder and project you voice please?' , my heart sank... morale totally gone. All along, I've been singing and practising on this song and then now I'm unable to sing it, due to the high pitches which I couldn't reached due to my tiredness... =X

After my song ended, commander talked to me, encouraged me... everyone encouraged me with some really nice words... but I myself know that it sucked alot!! How would this be? What am I going to do?? Ran all the way back to bunk, search through the folder for another song... time left was like 2 hours before the actual thing start... was almost on the verge of escaping reality... then I chose Chong Lai eventually as it somehows goes to mean 'restart/ all over again' , which perfectly describes me and her... Didn't had time to practice on that song at all as I need to shower, change into my performing clothings and styling up... But the heck cares bout that... Just gonna go up on stage and make a fool of myself in the end I thought.

Then Baby sent me an sms just before the actual thing, just before I was about to go up on stage and perform... this is what it says...

'Baby... Jiayou for ur singing performance... even if ur singing sucks, I still love it... =) '

So sweet of her... and it worked... at the end of the day, I enjoyed my performance, it was near perfect. No running out of the melody, no voice crack due to high pitches, and best was, my movement on the stage was so stunning. The usual me would have just stand there from the start till the end... but, I managed to walk around the stage, interacting with the spectators... won applauses in between breaks of the song... Wrapped up the whole this with a series of my usual humming of melodies... =)

Her sms really had affected me alot... I actually won the most applauses among all the other performers... So happy.... Baby, Thanks.... I Love You~

After the whole event, people start telling me how well I did... Great Job... things like that.. I guess they were really surprise by the difference of my voice during that final rehearsal in the afternoon and on the actual thing itself.... =) Most proud of all, is when the event is over and people starts leaving... Commander thanked me for putting up a very good performance, chief said I did a great job... and it shocked me alot when Commander Lancer actually stop me and shook my hand, talk to me and ask me some questions as follows...

Q1) Why do u like to sing? Is it a part time hobby or something?
ans: No sir, it's just that music's always been a great interest of mine. And I love to sing... because when I sing, people enjoy as much as I do....

Q2) Your vocal range's really wide... did you undergo any professional training?
ans: Yes sir, I went thru some basic singing training lesson by a famous teacher/song writer in singapore..

He wrapped things up by saying he'll be looking forward to seeing me perform again.... lol.. So proud lo... the others must be thinking of what were he telling me... haha =x

Was really tired after the whole thing, because the day after, I had to get ready, because I had another performance to go, this time the Lion Dance... Went back to room, showered and then brought my laptop to office and MSN with Baby... webcam and chatted the whole night till morning...

Its so great to be able to see her, hear her voice through mic and speakers... She actually stayed up to accompany me... because i had to wake up early but i decided not to sleep -_-" So nice of her to stay up just for me, so sweet of her for the things she said, messaged me... Loving her more and more each day, missing her every moment....

ps. If Baby's gonna read this, I just wanna say, I Love You.... and Thanks for the smll lil things you do for me... in the eye of others, they might be nothing at all, but in mine, its already everything!! Love u....

Sing SIng SIng!!

2008-07-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

outing wif sis 26/7/08

2008-07-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

IM FREE N EASY!!!

shopping trip wif my sis..

Dinner 9.30pm, @ Pepper Lunch.

shopping trip ends 11.15pm.

omg, i look fat in dis pic.. anyway todAy i'Ve bOught 1 pair of hEels fr Charles n Kieth, 2 spAg strIp blOuses n a pAir of shOrts fr Cotton On. i'Ve spent onli $67.20 on these!! haha.. happy..

im lost..

2008-07-23T08:36:00.007+08:00

IM LOST..

ytd i've cried e whole day on n off.. until juz now, my dear juz went to work.. things goes like dis.. if taken e situation now, mi n my bf in future will hav probs.. somehow some1 comes in.. he really let mi think alot.. i cant blame him too, cuz he oso pouring out his heart.. so both went into my heart let result mi to think alot, alot n alot more.. dis few days or rather dis 2 wks, my close frens given mi different kinds of advice n suggestions.. somehow, i really dunno wat to do.. my bf give mi love, lots of love n care, but not security.. he give mi kind of soul security but he's not here.. sounds complicated rite? haha.. nvm, as long as i noe wat im toking.. i dun wan to make such a big decision at dis time for my future.. anyway my dear promise he'll do some changes n let mi c e results during a yr plus or 2 time till i decide.. n im taking degree next yr.. so settling down might b 2 yrs later??

ytd after my bf had seen his msg (of cuz he noes hu he is), he kinda ask mi.. so i think its time to tell him e whole true story....... from 9am till 3pm, we've been discussing, toking wat i wan, wat he wans.. at tat moment my heart really cant settle down, not to say to choose hu n hu.. but to give 1 another a chance to think thru.. so we've agreed to seperate for the time being.. we've cried.. very badly.. at tat point in time, wat we've done in e 4 yrs of dis relationship gush into my mind.. so sad.. very sad.. i noe i still cant leave him.. but i really need time to b alone..

after 3pm, we went cwp to watch movie juz like usual couple. but of cuz i knew tat our hearts is unsettled.. went back to my blk n tok again.. he tot im 2 timer? din care bout him n our 4 yrs relationship? i explained n im not.. i felt disappointed.. i've cried.. he understand.. n started blame himself for not building a good foundations wif mi.. tats y things turn out dis way... but i din blame him.. i mean feelings dis kind of thing, dere's no hu's rite hu's wrong.. juz follow..

at nite, i've been thinking.. hugging my dear.. i felt very bad.. very bad.. thinkin y i juz cant settle down n decide 1?? y i gt e feeling of lost?? if im not lost, i wun b thinking so much.. i dunno.. i really dunno.. im lost.. very lost.. i've hurt some1 hu loves mi.. how?? i hate myself for being so selfish.. really hate.. i cried... non-stop.. more worse.. crying n crying.. tears juz easily flowin out of my eyes, down my face.. i really hated myself..

i've cried until very tired.. i slept.. even in my slp, my heart seems to break down.. tears run down even in my slp.. heart breaking.. until dis morning, dear went to work.. he said alot of caring mi words, seems like wan to leave mi.. i've cried again.. swollen eyes.. n again n again cried .. while typing dis blog too..

both miss mi, love mi.. worry bout mi.. tell mi not to worry too much.. think too much.. but sometimes juz cant help it.. i need to think wats best for us.. need to think of each other feelings.. try not to hurt 1 another as much as possible.. i think im not a gal hu worth for some1 doing something for mi.. im bad.. really bad..

I'VE BEEN LIVING A LIE

2008-07-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

22nd July 2008, Tuesday

Been rather busy and this is gonna carry on till 27th July 08. In case u people are wondering what I'm busy at, I'll fill u in. Am selected for a singing performance, lion dance performance, on 25th and 27th respectively. Been rehearsing and rehearsing. Then there's this preparation for the incoming training frame which resulted in tonnes of paperwork. The tentage thingy in the MPC (multi-purpose-court) is really a big headache. How to decorate? What material? What kinda theme? so on and so on and we're only left with last 3 and a half days to finish it up for the D&D.

On the other hand, it's bout me and her. I know people will start cursing me for appearing out of nowhere and stepping into some other couple's relationship. I know there's no point for me to explain much. I've never stop thinking at all. Fact is, no matter how much I thought, there's no way I can do anything at the moment, and so applies to her too. Did I really appeared out of nowhere? Am I doing something bad?

Fact has it that, I didn't appear from nowhere all of a sudden. I've always been there even before I left for my work over in Borneo. Its just that, chemistry took place while I was back in Singapore in June 08 for my home leave. I didn't planned for anything. Why am I being called despicable?? That's a very hurtful word to use. It's such a coincidence that her relation with her bf has turned sour due to their personal reason... and I just happened to be there... u can say I went back to Singapore at the wrong time, but in the first place, I know nothing between she and her bf. Truth is my feelings has always been there, kept silent from most people, because I know, YES I KNOW, that she's attached. It was only after I left once again, that made her realise her feelings too. This kinda things, cant blame her too. Any normal girls would hope for someone to dote on her, love her, spare some thoughts for her, hold her hands tight when things happen, sense of security, happiness, blissfulness. But am I suppose to be blamed for her relation turned sour? Initially that was my concern, that I'll be destroying their relationship if I were to confess and express myself. However, I have to say that problem was already there even before my return... No one should be blamed. None.

I know what she wants, and am able to give her all she wants. I have the ability. I touched and crossed upon my heart to say that, what I've told her, are never just words. My only disadvantage that's misleading that those were words without action, is the fact that I am overseas, and I won't be around her at the moment. Physically I can't promise anything, other then shortening my tour. Now everyone's asking me, what the reason... am I suppose to tell everyone that I'm a bastard and destroyed someone else's relationship? That's not the case. I'm earning salary that's almost two times fresh diploma graduates... shortening my tour means lesser income... 6 months... 6 months is almost equivalent to 20K!! Am I not sacrificing? I know she needs me too. That's why I made my decision. There are some things which can't be bought using money, Love and Happiness is one.

I even told myself, this is not just gonna be about me and her alone. Its gonna be my family, her family, her friends, my friends, our friends too. Can u imagine marrying someone and his/her family members can't accept u? I'm doing all I can to try my very best to find out what has been going on on her part. I spent sleepless nights thinking bout our future. Yes, I know she wants a famliy of her own. This is the one thing that I've also always wanted.

Just before I left for Borneo, she requested for a hug. My reply to her was, 'it's not so nice' because I know very well that she's attached. I left... Alot of thoughts crossed my mind while I was in the holding area awaiting departure, in the air craft and even when I've already returned here. It was only when I read her blog , and got GR to help me confirmed some stuffs with her before I called her up and talked it out. Is it wrong of her to go after her own happiness? And is it wrong for me to do the same too? End of the day, it's HER happiness.

I didn't even ask her for a decision, knowing that it's gonna be unfair to her as I won't be around for her. At the same time, here I am, enduring and persevering, holding onto every branches that I can find, working hard for our future if there's any.. Since the day I came to Borneo, I left my cards back in Singapore. I survived on an average $250 per month on my remittance. Saved.... for? Can anyone imagine how lonely it is to be all alone in a total different environment, away from ur family and loved ones? Can anyone imagine how's the feeling like, when u cant even bring ur love one out for a meal, cant even give her a very simple hug, cant even get to see her??? I'm going through all these.

I'm not trying to tell u guys how great I am. But now that I understand and know how she feels towards me too, I have nothing to hide. Of course I'm happy. But following this, I have lots to worry about too. how to maintain this kinda long distance relationship? How to get along well with her family members? How to be there for her when she needs me most? All these are yet to be solved... -_-"

As for Gene, I'm glad u cared so much for ur sis... it's totally fine with me that u can't understand what happened at all... its totally fine with me that u think I'm being despicable... its totally fine with me that you're calling me a bastard... its totally fine with me that u won't like me.. Most important thing now is, ur sis really needs the both of u and ur younger sis care, support and company... Ur sis loves u two alot... I know u girls love her as much. I'm still holding on and standing strong on my stand. I love her...

p.s: U can never please everyone in the room, u can never have the best of both world... Only perseverance and time would be able to tell...

~Jun Tai~

ROM is cancelled..

2008-07-21T17:18:00.003+08:00

Somehow, before signing the paper, i really started to think alot.. Suddenly felt tat my future is not secured.. money wise, educational, relying, working... everything n anything i felt not secure.. except his LOVE.. Yes, he treat mi very nice.. nice until it seems tat mayb dere's no other guy hu treat mi sooo good.. accepted how untidy i am (like sometimes i running nose i'll sinply grab his shirt n wipe, ya, its yucks!), how many pimples all over my face, how lazy i am, etc...

On tat nite of our discussion or somehow, quarrel, regarding our ROM. I really told him wat i really wan.. although it hurts, i still hav to say.. im practical.. i've waited for 4 yrs, n it seems tat we r still running on the same spot.. NO, its i am running forward, while he's running on e same spot.. I know i cant blame him for tat.. I can understand his family situation.. But somehow i juz cant accept..

He told mi to wait for him, to support him, work hard togather wif him n understand him.. yes, i'll understand.. i've been working hard, but i cant see his.. i dunno how long i can wait n support him.. 2 yrs? 3 yrs? or 5 yrs? or more?? i really dunno.. somemore he said tat its not a yr or 2 time.. ok den.. i'll wait..

During dis 2 weeks, i've been struggling.. i seem to see no future in us.. we've been discussing or quarreling quite often.. he said tat i've been listening to wat my mum n frens advice, n easily get influence, n say tat i think too much.. i dunno i think too much or i really thinking hard for my future.. he said we need to communicate more.. gt wat probs juz say it out.. but watever i say, he seems catch no ball.. at e same time again, he ask mi to support him n work hard togather.. omg.. dunno how to ans him.. i tot of us seperating a certain period n let us think wat we wan.. tats wat e advice fr my close frens too.. unlike most couples, all these 4yrs plus, we tok to each other for everyday even though we quarrel, within 2-3 hrs its settled.. tats wat i dun like, nv give each of us sometime to think thru..

N he said onli for the time being he gt money turnover? problem, but it doesnt mean tat in future he'll not b wealthy.. ok, i agreed.. lets leave aside $$ issue.. e other thing is tat relying? i cant imagine tat watever thing he's relying on mi!! watever documents in eng he'll ask mi to c n explain.. in resturants, i order food.. he doesnt know comp stuffs.. its not tat i xian qi him.. i juz wan a guy hu i can rely on.. really..

Really, i juz wan a hu i can rely on.. hu loves mi n of cuz i love him.. whr in future no need to worry bout money or communication breakdown issue.. now is loving, i dun wish tat becuz of money or other comm prob, loves becomes a burden..

A Promise is A Promise

2008-07-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 20 July 2008

Today's my off day. Went off out, to Gadong, The mall.
First thing first, I was suppose to wake up at 8am and prepare board the OFF VEHICLE at the pick up point. But!!! I overslept and woke up at 8.50am instead -_-" Was so rush!! Frankly, I shower without soap and shampoo =x Just anyhow splash only... then delayed the others for like 5 minutes~~ Lol... Luckily no one complains... haha!! Sorry guys...

Anyway, went to Gadong, The Mall. Shopping spree today. Bought some clothes and two pairs of shoes. To prepare for my performance, the singing performance coming soon. Spent like 200 over dollars? Ya... on food also. I bought an extra psp battery also. Cos always not enough to last me thru... haha... I'm a gamer!! =)

Anyway, I finally am at ease on mind... I've talked to her, told her what I want. She understands and we've cleared our doubts on each other... so good... so happy.... so relaxed now.

Not gonna be too wordy, these coming few days am gonna be quite busy with rehearsals on singing and lion dance... I suddenly feel so enriching!! I love this feeling... Thanks... =)

~Jun Tai~

Some Pictures taken @ the Happy Hour July '08

2008-07-18T05:04:00.000+08:00

That's gotta be Me & Ali

Me, receiving my prize and trophy from CMD's Hand

Roy, Gerald & Me

Me and the Referee Fadli

My 'daughter' and I (actually that's Si Yin, SSG Chung's kid)

The 2 finalist, Sing Wei & Me

That's me, Gerald in red cap and Roy

Bee Bee & Scorpion

Kun Kun & Bee Bee

Fadly & Me

Me & Aleem (Ali extra sia~~)

9-Ball Pool Championship Finals cum Happy Hour July '08

2008-07-18T03:56:00.001+08:00

The day started of with me receiving a call at 8 plus am, to attend the conference, standing in for Roy as he was not around in camp. As usual, rushed like hell... Run like a mad guy towards the conference room. It was regarding the Creative Day... TODAY IS CREATIVE DAY!!! I totally lost count of my schedule... -_-" Didn't even realise that I was suppose to be leading my team till last minute.. Hectic kick-start of the day... Anyway, I didn't sleep well last night... Some things were bothering me... my mind was empty...

Tonight was the my night. Its the Happy Hour for July '08. One of the main event was the 9-Ball Pool Championship, featuring Sing Wei and I, the last two man standing. Right from the start of the first game, I screwed up everything... The mood's not right... I wasn't putting in any effort to play it... I lost the whole game even before I knew it.. However, displaying sportsmanship spirit, I congratulate Sing Wei on being crowned the Champion of LC... I could only be the 1st runner up in LC.... anyway, it didn't really bother me much... really...

I called up her right after the game, talked for a while, hung up and then I just sat right there for like whole 10 minutes, once again, mind was blank... that kinda feeling really sucks... So unrealistic... so unnatural... so uncomfortable...

I've been thinking alot alot these few days since I came back from Singapore... I try not to let my emotion cross the line, I simply hide things to myself, carry on working as usual... maybe I'm trying to escape reality? Or could it be I'm just ignorant and don't know what to do? I really had no idea... Happy Hour ended and I went back for a shower... still brainstorming on what's going on in me... I have the problem, yet I have no solution to it at all... =x Called GR up and talk to him bout it, talked for quite some time... I derived at what should be done... He didn't tell me much either... just some casual comments... he couldn't help me at all either... Sigh...

I really didn't expect this to happen.... yet it did... running away was no solution, I have to face it all eventually... anyway I'm away from Singapore, I'm all alone... Except my two damn close buddy here in Brunei... =)

My conclusion was at such:

Would it damage me more if I chose to keep mum and nothing gets done, or would it hurt more if I were to speak it up and things turn ugly?? Will I regret at the end of the day??

Contradicting huh?? I feels that way too.. after much consideration, I've decided to speak it up... If it turns out unfavourable for me, at least I've pour out my heart, rather then to keep mum and then regret for the rest of my life. I'm not gonna bother on how people are gonna talk behind my back... Not gonna care how people looks on me... All I know is that I don't wanna regret at all, not at all!!

Time was 11.50pm when I started talking to Gerald as well as Roy. We all have our own problems... we talked bout our problems, our worries... Roy's case was worse then mine... yet mine isn't any better either. We are both EGO at hearts and are not willing to open up ourselves to the problem. Gerald was rather supportive... Gave alot of advice to both of us... At the end of the conversation, Roy has decided to re-submit his extension of tour... as for me, I am a little more clear about what I want, and how to go about expressing it.

Gerald's words strike me, 'Bee Bee, If you're gonna remain at the same spot where you are now, you'll never move on...'

I'm really happy that I've met Roy and Gerald over here... we're like one family, more then friends... we love each another, we care for each another.. When one is down, the other two will put in the effort to cheep him up, drink with him... I'm really thankful to have them around me... They made my LONELY world over in Borneo totally changed.... from what used to be in black and white, to how colourful it is now...

Thanks Roy, Thanks Gerald...

Time is now 4.29am, 18th July 2008... I've come up to my office to update my blog... I couldn't sleep anyway... Roy and Gerald were fast asleep.... I couldn't bear to wake them up... I needed to be alone anyway... So here I am... updating post... checking mails... I can't go any further, I need to start thinking again... I have to! I must!

Good night to everyone, those back in Singapore as well as fellow colleagues... Rest well...

p.s: When the whole world denies you, I'll still be standing firm right beside... just turn around and look at me, you'll find that the earth we're standing on is still rotating...
I don't wanna miss a thing....
I hope you too wouldn't....
~Jun Tai~

Injury~ Injury ~ Injury~

2008-07-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

Last night was rather tired, that's why no post. Anyway, nothing much for ytd, just slacking around until night at around 10pm. Lee Siang came to our bunk with some alcohol he brought back from his LABUAN trip. Its called the banana split... one side is banana milk, 15ml with 15% alcohol, the other chocolate, 15ml with 15% alcohol too. That actually make up a total of 30% alcohol per shot glass... There were six shot glasses. We play dai dee... I lost once and had to drink it. IT WAS VERY NICE!!!! $33 for 6 shot glasses of 'banana split'. Lee Siang had 2, Roy 1, and Gerald 2. We finished up the six glasses of alcohol, and felt like, 'eh, not enough lehz... not high at all... so, Gerald suggested to use the same glasses again, but this time with Vodka and Beer, 15ml each... -_-" The taste was hell. Vodka itself contains 40% of alcohol, and the beer we mix with was special kind too... Think total alcohol percentage was like 45%?!? That's alot la~~

This time round, everyone was rather scare to drink.... the blend indeed sucks to the max. I guess all were praying hard not to lose any rounds. Results went like these...

1st round - LOSER Lee Siang
2nd round - LOSER Lee Siang
3rd round - LOSER Me =(
4th round - LOSER Me =( X2
5th round - LOSER Roy
6th round - LOSER Gerald (in addition, he had one extra 30ml shot on Vodka neat)

Lol... all ended up face red red... damn funny... boring ppl do stupid things!!
We had nothing to play with, only alcohol, which we kept alot with us..

This morning suppose to wake up at 6.30 to do taking over then at 7am was HLS (healthy lifestyle) ... I couldn't wake up despite have my alarm right beside me =x Pulled my damn freaking sleepy soul out of bed, and rushed like hell. Its already 7.05am!!! I missed the taking over, and HLS has commenced!! -_-"
Ran all the was up to the court, and saw that they had started doing the warming up.. joined in, no one questioned me... no one really asked me for resaon why I'm late... =) Guess my PR here still not bad... Haha.... played Captain's Ball today for HLS... My team was the champion out of the 4 total teams. We beat the 'obeased' team, the 'tall-men' team, and the 'youngsters' team...
It was my first time playing games with WO Alvin and WO Rothmat... they are old, but still energentic... lol.. GOOD GAME!

Then at 10am, start working in accordance to the new shipment beddings... sweat hell lots... Weather was killing each and everyone of us slowly... Nevertheless, guys from various department turned up to help us... we completed everything at 2.30pm. The 4 and a half hours were torturing... yet fun... though all were working very hard... but at least all of us sweat together, smoked together, eat together, get dirty together... I love this kinda bonding... =)

Direct boss not around today... feels so good, feels so easy... I hope its gonna be a good day that follows... I feel burning sensation over my body, especially shoulders and arms and my back, we were under the damn sun for the 4 hours plus, without our shirt on.. -_-" I guess its sun burnt! Painful painful painful. Anyway, In the process of working, I hurt my right ankle while pulling the stacker up slope... hurt my fingers when something dunno what came crashing down on it... back aching like hell.... am going to medical centre to dress bandage on it... hopefully the swell will go away asap... PRAYING HARD!!

*when I finally see ur true smile, that's the moment I know there's no more obstruction between us*
~ Jun Tai~

Cohesion Day

2008-07-15T07:43:00.000+08:00

14th July 200, Monday.

Its our Dept's Cohesion Day.. so rare to see everyone in the department to wake up so early. We're to consume our breakfast for the day n the cook house, and menu was Burger with Milo.. =)
All were rather bored initially, because of the schedule for the day... Moving from places to places.

After breakfast, meet up at pick up point. That's where the bus will pick us up and proceed to out various destination. I wore a brown bermuda, a green T-shirt, a pair of sneakers and the cap I made at far east back in SG. With a sling bag, containing my most important PSP that's gonna kill my boredom along the way, my wallet, coin purse as well as my extra shorts and towel. Was planning to have a swim at one of our destination, Selapon River.

Our very 1st check point was the boat launch area. This is where most of our boats during exercises launch. Nothing much here, just a small river and a cemetery. Had my very first mozzie bite here, right on my ankle!! -_-" We travelled like half an hour, ust to spend like ten bloody minutes there =x
Next was the Selapon River. We had sandwiches ready made, and drinks available. While most of them changed into their shorts to get a lil cooling sensation from the natural river water, which flows down from a nearby mountain, me and a few others were sitting around, playing with our PSP, talking craps and happily eating the food. I changed my damn idea bout swimming the moment I reach the place. The water is so cold!!!! Raymond borrowed my shorts in the end...
The guys seem to really enjoy themselves at Selapon. Swinging from a rope and later release themselves into the river. I remember seeing Yasser swing naked!!! Lol... and the rope that he was clinging to accidentally cut his..... u know?? Lol... Other places includes Mini Zoo, which has a total of less then ten types of animals.. -_-" It's really mini for god's sake.. Haha... then there's this Piano Bridge, Lutoot Bridge, and a place where most of us indulge in picking up crystal stones, and all sorts of rare, hard-to-find stones and pebbles. MSG Chung was greedy, he pick a stone around the weight of 2KG!!! Faintz... For me, I managed to picked 3, one for myself, one for Gerald and the other for Roy, my suck cock buddies here in Brunei.

The event wraps up with whold lot of us having our dinner at the guest house of temburong, with a $3.00 Buffet.... super worth~~

Return to camp and saw Gerald and Roy inside bunk, they had abandoned me for Labuan, a place in malaysia where most guys here will visit, for the clubs, drinks, food, and of cos LUST!! Not bad though, they bought me a watch, and a bermuda, freaking cute la!!! Thanks guys~

Anyway, I've decided that my posts will not be uploaded with any pictures.. My main motive is to share with u all bout my life, happenings, and updates while I'm away from singapore, the pictures that I took, will share with u guys when I return to singapore again ya? =) Love you people so much... Miss my bike so much, hope YP will really take good care of it for me.. Thanks dude!

p.s: more updates, more interesting things to share with u people when i go for off again this coming weekend!

STAY TUNED!!!

~Jun Tai~

Off to Town, Shopping~!!!

2008-07-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

Went to sleep quite early last night, as I took all the pills
prescribed by the medical officer. Out of the four, three
causes drowsiness -_-"

I was woken up by a phone call this morning at 7.00am.
It was Khairul... asking me to wake up for our off-out!!
After hanging up, I dozed off again as usual..
When I finally climbed out of my bed reluctantly, it was
already like 7.20am... had to rush to wash up, collect
the clothes from the dryer, as well as shower...
Changed and sprayed the perfume Huiling and gang
gave me, styled up my hair, and off to the pick up
point, where everyone else was... damn lot of people
went for off today... LOL... rather fun though.

Went to Yayasan for breakfast along with Khai, Fad,
Sze Han... Had Hongkong tim sum there.. not bad..
after which proceeded to the jetty, took a super speed
boat to Kiulap, cos Fad suggested going for massage,
and everyone agree, didnt want to be a spoil spot..
so i went along. Anyway F.Y.I, the massage here are so
freaking painful. Think all the masseurs can go fight
wrestling... haha... Opted for the 1 hour session, quite
worth it though, was 30bucks..

After massage, was already around 12plus in the noon.
Went to the nearby shop that sells army stuffs. Bought a
Sling Bag at 27bucks, just a normal sling bag for my PSP
and wallet and stuffs like that.

Took a bus, No. 20 to Gadong, The Mall. Had our lunch
there. Ordered Maweke Udon (seaweed noodle) and a
side Sashimi. Delicious and fulfilling!! After that, continued
to shop around. Bought some badges for my bag and a watch.
The others spent like hell on clothes, shoes etc etc...
Slacking around after that, sitting down from place to place,
waiting for time to pass.

Time was 4.30pm when we left for Subok, the place where we
take the water taxi back to temburong. In the boat, saw this girl
sittng right opposite me. She was so petite, B~E~A~U~tiful...
Khai insisted she was a malay, but i know she isn't... She has got
to be a chinese. She's very very fair, had long straight hair. I did
glanced at her secretly, but I guess she knew, because she was
kinda smiling back at me for a while.. haha... SHE SMILED AT
ME!!! =) End of the day, i didnt approached her at all even after
we dis embarked at temburong...

Went to had dinner, Nasi Katok as usual... before heading back
to camp... Did some area cleaning, fold my clothes, went for
a shower and took my medicine. Rather bored in my bunk, as
Gerald and Roy has went for overseas leave to Labuan, the red
light district. So decided to go to Khai's bunk to talk cock with
them for awhile, and borrowed some DVDs from them.
Ended up here in the MESS using my lappy to msn with cat and
GR....

Its raining outside... I guess tonights gonna be another lonely
night for me, sleeping alone in the bunk, with no one to talk to
yet again... Sometimes I wonder, have I made the right choice?
Should I extend my term here?? For the money....... maybe I
really might... For time to come, shall see about it... Sigh....

~Jun Tai~

OMG!! It's 38.2 degree celsius~~ Faintzz....

2008-07-12T16:27:00.001+08:00

I really didnt expect it to be that bad.
When I cough, my flam carries some blood on it,
when I sneeze, i feel so painful at my throat.
Whole body temperature rising..

Went to report sick,
took temperature and it was 38.2 degree Celsius...
They wanted to put a drip on me!! But knowing me,
I'm most afraid of needles and injections... who would
I approve of that. End up just get Paracetamol for my
fever, Antibiotics, pills for my running nose, and lozenges
for my inflammation tonsils...

I feel so sleepy, so tired... =x
My body feels lifeless...
am I dying soon??

God Bless Me

2008-07-12T08:46:00.001+08:00

Hey, peeps.. this is gonna be my very first post. 1st, I'm gonna tell u a lilmore bout my daily routines, before I go further into details. =)

7.00am - Woke up, have a stick of energy bar (cigarette) before Iproceed to shower and brush my teeth.

7.30am - Stroll my way up to my office, saw the Duty Officer there..didtaking over of my work area from him. Had another 2 sticksof energy bar.

8.00am - Saw most of my branch guys... all the big shots are going offout today.... NO GOVERNMENT DAY!!!!

8.15am - Here I am in my office, putting up my very 1st post =) Haha...
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I've just returned back from my indulgence leave from Singapore fewdays back, on the 9th of July '08. For personnels who're posted overseasfor a year or more, we are entitled with 1 X Home leave. The Indulgenceand the Bonus leave are depending on our performance thru daily work,IPPT results as well as code of conduct. Needless to say, I got my Indulgence,meaning to say, I've performed well enough, and deserve the short break!!

I went to lots of places where in the past I didn't find attractive, fun orenjoyable. Town, parks, Champions way... Except for this trip,I've been visiting KK Hospital quite frequently. To pick and send a friendfrom her work. Just a friend... -_-"

I've enjoyed the day where Catherine, Kai, Victor, Yingying, Jason, Shun Cai,Huiling and Yuxuan arranged at Zero-Point pub. Thanks for all your kisses,the gigantic welcome back famoua amos cookie, and of cos the time spent.Though I've longed to sing with Huiling again, but end up she didn't sing.Then there's this GAY working in the pub... keep on disturbing me. So I had nochoice, but to lie that I'm attached to Kai... she helped me thru though =)But why Kai?? Here's my explanation, Huiling's really attached to Denny,Yingying is Victor's wife.. Only left with Cat and Kai. Given Cat's personality,she would have killed me if I were to 'BORROW' her name. In anyway, I'm alsocloser to Kai ma... So Cat, don't be jealous la huh~

Then there's of cos my bunch of brothers and sisters from Riverside Sec.. They arenamely Guorong, Yongping, Juncai, Lester, Kiat Jiun (暧昧), Grace, Chu Ai (爱你不是两三天), Jasper, Ah Boy, and Guoxiong. We had fun eating out, pubbing,racing against each other in the arcade on Maximum Tune 4. Am very greatful myfriends still remembers me. GR, GX, LESTER, JC and I went to Zouk. Was freakingboring in there, so i went off earlier at ard 12plus am.

I went to touched up my tattoo, Grace was with me throughout. She spent almost all her off days accompanying me to places like Army Market for my badges, Far eastfor the DIY caps, Bugis for praying, Hougang to collect stuffs... So in return for herkindness, I volunteered to send her to work as well ass pick her up after work. Weare just friends... come on... -_-" She's getting married... I wouldn't wanna become a3rd party, destroying others relationships... I swear... I really am not the sort!!

I had food which can't be found that easily in Borneo most of the time when I'm inSingapore. Sushi, McDonalds, Subway, Pastas... also not forgetting Prawn Noodles,Wonton Mee, Chicken rice, Kway Chup and Tim Sum... drooling already.... shit!Back here in Borneo, food I take are by cookhouse NS chefs, Or IndoMee, a type ofmaggie mee... haiz... incredibly, I still manage to put on some weight.

Today is the second time I fell sick in borneo since I posted here. First time not so bad,had a super flu, mucus keep on coming out of my nose. But got well after a daytaking the medicine. Now very ChiaLat... super sore throat. Cannot eat, cannot drinkcannot smoke also... and I feel terrible... =x

Anyway, I'm not gonna drag this on too long, or it'll end up being real boring toread my blog.
I guess thats all for my 1st post?? Thanks for reading. Leave me some commentsif possible... and I really Love u guys~~!!

Take care and keep coming in for update on new posts!

Pictures might be uploaded soon. Waiting for them to send me.. -_-"

~Jun Tai~

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2008-07-09T10:04:00.004+08:00

when i handle this, im sxxks at it.

when it's gone, i've put my mind in ease.

BUT, it's so damn irritating HEAVY!!!

Argh......!!!

in e process of putting down.

Yu Hong's Full Mth

2008-06-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

My dear cousin QiQi's son, Yu Hong.

Term Baby. 3.plus kg. Bottling sucks well. PU, BO.

Full mth's Celebration. So cute!!

HTC touch diamond

2008-06-20T01:12:00.003+08:00

HTC Touch Diamond

My Dream Phone!!

hapy bday suyun! '08

2008-05-21T04:03:00.000+08:00

Suyun's 21st bikini party..

of cuz im not wearing it.. haha..

im not in.. cuz gonna left early.. so sorry.. =)

4-some

bday wif scn

2008-04-23T03:53:00.000+08:00

Celebrate bday wif sweety SCN!

my bday cake!! sweet!

promoting singtel!! HAHA..

ok.. time to go for work.. byes.. =)

Happy Bday to Grace '08

2008-04-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Grace!!

12th April'08 Thanz to my lovely Chole for specially send the white sling bag right at my doorstep!! so sweeeet... n thanz so much...

16th April'08 Went to zouk (ladies' nite) with my ex-jacks colleagues!! Enjoy myself very much!! N ya, thanz for the BRA and grey flowery dress!! N thanz for ya "cheers" of chivas, made mi so DRUNK!! FRom zouk vomits till home!! 1st time in my life vomitted so much!! vomit until nothing to vomit, but still vomit... haahaa... lucky gt my dear acc mi home, if nOt how can i manage back home sia...

17th April'08 Slept till 11plus in e morning.. meet cecelia to go nyp club crawl n support La' Ballroom En Masse!! So miss dancing when we saw dem dance salsa hip hop, cha cha, jive, samba, rumba ~~~ finally gt chance to take e club polo tee from dem, somemore gt my name on it!! so Proud!! haha...

in evening time, met yanlee, chu ai, daven, weisong n zhiyuan for dinner in swenson!! thanz ai ai n yan yan for the Dotti vest or cardigan?? u guys ar, mei liang xing de, come makan oso nO present!! haha.. joking.. u able to come good lo.. =)

18th April'08 THankS to Every1 for all the Birthday Wishes!! Pardon mi for nOt replying all of ya msges...

In e noon time, met dear (with his 1 stalk of nicely wrapped pink rose) with my mum n gene to west coast jacks to eat lunch. at 4pm went round to bukit panjang plaza to shop for my O2 skin productz, spent $150++.. while my mum n gene went back home le.. around in evening, juz nice, went to kranji turf to see horsies!! So mancho and pretty.. its so exciting when u wan tat horsie to win!! saw uncles holding on to horsies guides n bettings n shoutings! saw some horsies tame, some walk proud, some like lazy lazy, some gt temper, die die oso dun wan to get in the gate.. haha.. sitting in the upper grandstand with air-con, seeing through a whole row of glass, whr u'll see a very big tv panals with those horsies names, previous scores, weights n live broadcasting, etc... n the HUGE racing ground.. hmmm.. good exploration..

time for dinner!! reach back home at 8plus pm, bath, went dinner to 888 with my dear n family, parents gave an ang bao as my bday present. after a full dinner, mi n my dear went cwp for a midnight movie, The Forbidden Kingdom!! nice movie to watch in cinema!! afterall its a wonderful day of pak-tohing!!

Ice skating!! '08 april

2008-04-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

ICE SKATING

Snowing ...

Wif my pri sch fren, jin yuan.

n my sis sec sch fren, jun feng.

sweet..

2008-03-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

Parents to Korea.

Korea Tour (22/3 - 29/3)

Ipoh Tambun' mar 08

2008-03-12T02:25:00.001+08:00

The Mist...

outside my dear's hs in ipoh..

*haha, actually it's, u knOw the kill mosquitoes thing 1 lo..*

BCLS '08

2008-02-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

BCLS re-certified!! all passes 7 modules! tired.. backaches.. leg cramps..

recently, planning something very very very impt to mi.. it plays a part of my future, happiness and memories.. simple will be fine.. hope nothing goes wrong.. thinking of the dates, time, venues. checking out in chalets, caterings, solomnisers.. knowing to register at least before 25days from the date we want to held, 3 days before to collect documents and confirm with solomniser, and when to call, try and take our "costumes".. wondering his parents will wan to choose a 'date' and coming to attend? 2 witnesses, 1 my dad while the other his dad? dunno will it be successful?? lets wait till after 15th march! hope everything is fine... =)

Sentosa 170208

2008-02-17T23:26:00.001+08:00

Sometimes.. went out for a tann is good for skin!!

thats we last min buy e table cloth mat!! haha..

Admired flowers kinda relax too..

Flowers, flowers and MORE FLOWERS!!

Happy CNY'08!!

2008-02-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY'08

happy bday Rumya!

2008-01-15T03:48:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Bday Rumya!!

hanging out on the streets.. walking to ..

Fashion Bar.. im drunk..

HoHoHo!! merry x'mas'07

2007-12-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

Post X'mas dinner @ Holland V.

was awesome!!

Wat i've got??:

*a Ripcurl straw bag

*an entangled red necklace (best for my cny!)

*Guess wallet

*a diamond Hello Kitty watch

*Muji organiser

Cheers!! =)

Avril's Wedding!

2007-11-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

Avril's Big Day! Congrats dear!!

the alter full of praying stuffs..

thats the da kam jie, hu toks alot.. need to bai dis, bai tat..

very the traditional..

now starting to jing cha to ancestors den elders den parents, relatives, married cousins, and getting ang baos from dem..

for 1 and a half hrs pass.. Finally..

its our turn to get ang bao fron dem!! haha!!

At nite, having Wedding Dinner..

preparing to 'YAM SENG'

Here we go! "YAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmm..................... SENG!"

Behind the Scene..

Mi, Chloe and Xindey

tats avril's ex.. hehe.. shhh..

After the dinner...

back home..

The Phang's Family

The Phang's very Extended Family

2007-10-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

Always.. its juz too lazy to blog..

SPBA Competition

2007-08-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

SPBA Competition.. Competing in "Beginner Waltz" and "Beginner Tango"..

The Ballroom that we r going to dance on it.

My 2 Best Sisters come n support mi!! Thanz so much darlings..

(L) Awaiting for results.. (R) Results Announced..

We've got the Champion for both dance, Waltz n Tango!!

SCN- 2 mths

2007-08-14T20:51:00.000+08:00

Im in Special Care Nursery @ KKH for exactly 2 mths le.. So wat am i doing dere?? Of cuz take care of sick babies la.. Like premature babies, jaundice babies, hypoglycemia babies, Very Low Birth Weight (VLBW) babies, poor sucking babies and alot more... those medical jargons of babies is like so different from adults ones.. Of cuz sometimes i think tat i study e 3 year course of nursing is like so wasted.. But as in not so wasted la, cuz some nursing care is still sort of using?? haha... watever.. anyway i still very interested in taking care of babies!! but still not so confident enuff to communicate wif parents... In the process of learning le, after the 'Service From The Heart'! Hope in 2 or 3 yrs time, able to take advanced dip in midwifery. cuz tats still my most interesting career.. Happy Working!!

Happy Wedding to our dear Minmin..

2007-07-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Wedding to our dear Minmin..

Cheers n Congrats to ur Wedding!!

she's too busy le.. so cant take any photo wif her using our cam..

Graduation '07

2007-07-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

Finally, i've graduate!!

*uploading pics.. pls wait..

Amara Hotel '07

2007-06-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

Over Weekend stay at Amara

Lets go for a Swim!!

Our Story Of~

Final Phase

All that were being looked forward on...

So in love with you

Time will tell.

Let's move on...

Our Love, Unexplainable. . .

Post Pt Edu Exam tiredness~

Transfered posts!

Fever Tgt!

Blog name change!

Happy Valentines~

More Than Words

Happy CNY '09

My Goalz~

GR left~ and Janet's ROM

Specially for you....

Thanks Laopo!

laogong's 22nd bday

Happy 22nd bday

Terry's Wed

Nurul's 21st

Chanel's Birthday!!

laogong's mum bday 31/10

baby's back! 9/10

Sentosa wif ai, gr

Happy 20th birthday Xinyue

So short yet so long

9/9/08

What else can I say??

witness a 24 wks left..

34 more days and counting down...

Emoing~~

$$$$$

Sick and Emo~

baby's 18/8

Cute Cute stuffs!

*A side of me where no one knows*

Outing wif Sweeties 11/8/08

Back in Action!

Happy Missy DAy!!

Dear n Baby

Sing SIng Sing!!!

Sing SIng SIng!!

outing wif sis 26/7/08

im lost..

I'VE BEEN LIVING A LIE

ROM is cancelled..

A Promise is A Promise

Some Pictures taken @ the Happy Hour July '08

9-Ball Pool Championship Finals cum Happy Hour July '08

Injury~ Injury ~ Injury~

Cohesion Day

Off to Town, Shopping~!!!

OMG!! It's 38.2 degree celsius~~ Faintzz....

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Yu Hong's Full Mth

HTC touch diamond

hapy bday suyun! '08

bday wif scn

Happy Bday to Grace '08

Ice skating!! '08 april

Ipoh Tambun' mar 08

BCLS '08

Sentosa 170208

Happy CNY'08!!

happy bday Rumya!

HoHoHo!! merry x'mas'07

Avril's Wedding!

SPBA Competition

SCN- 2 mths

Happy Wedding to our dear Minmin..

Graduation '07

Amara Hotel '07

A side of me where no one knows