~The Story of Gregory and Grace~

Thursday, July 31, 2008

im very disappointed... dey dun understand how i feel.. yes, dey mayb hav their point of view.. but y cant dey juz put mi in their shoes?? if dey r really mi, wat will dey do or decide?? is it fair to mi?? wat do dey mean by let him to 'slowly let go'?? i dunno how to do to make him slowly let it go.. i think e onli we can do is ya, seperate...

yes, i noe, ya.. mayb i've or we've hav been draggy.. i mean, ya, no point le... i c no point liao.. past few days he called mi, yes of cuz i'll still pick up his phone.. but, as a status of a fren, tats wat he says oso.. but whenever he call, he'll still tok back bout e past.. say he tat few days, suddenly tot of mi, putting himself in my shoe.. he say he understand how i feel.. how in e past yrs he's too cared bout his family.. its not i not discouraging him to help his family, i mean he shld to how to manage his money wise?? saving a $50 to $100 isnt tat difficult?? rather spend the money on eating in geylang or whrever?? n lots of bits n pieces la.. i told him.. i've waited, given u time.. last 3yrs time to realise?? not enuff?? hinting, telling n tolearating, dere's still a limit to it.. i somehow find him so irrtated! wat i wan is not the PAST! yes, he oledi told mi how he felt, but its juz seems too late.. wat i wan is the FUTURE.. i've had enuff of the past.. ya, dere's love.. until now of cuz i still rem e past we've been togather.. 4 yrs.. 4 yrs relationship of cuz not easy to throw away.. but, on the other hand, im practical.. tats y im able to let go..

mayb ya, really juz b4 my ROM, i really really think hard..

its my fault too.. mayb dunno how to manage my relationship?? but come to think of it.. if i juz wan to tao hao my close ones n be fair to him, but izzit fair to mi den??

ya, im not being neutral now.. as ya, my baby still keeping in touch wif mi, wif calls, msn, webcam, sms n video calls.. but not my dear.. juz presume tat im being heartless or cruel or watever, i wan him to let go.. n work for his future... i dunno how to let him slowly let go, like wat my mum say.. i oso dunno wat to do like she say.. wif dear's thinking like tat, he'll think otherwise, if im not heartless enuff.. yes, juz assume tat im heartless la..

i've cried, ya again.. wif my really close 1 not supporting mi, rather den to hurt n stress mi? asking mi to think of his feelings, 4 yrs relationship, very difficult for him to let go.. den, hu would think of mi?? being fair to mi?? think of his feelings n be draggy?? explained n explained, i've had enuff!! cried, i've cried lots! countless..

i've no need to hide tat, now im close wif baby.. as in ya, we still contact each other.. seeing each other thru webcam.. making mi smile n laugh when im sad.. do all sorts of funny things he can think of.. i will miss him.. waiting for his return.. ya, not to hide.. but still like wat i say, i wun commit to any relationship, until i noe tat he's the 1, my husband... i noe tat im still young, y say so far like husband?? its not tat im eager to get married.. i've already prepare n waited.. 4 yrs n it turns out nothing.. im sick n tired of it..

PiNky sOtoNg 7/31/2008 10:14:00 PM

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Gerald, We'll always support u!!

Jason, Roy, Me & Gerald, just right before I go on stage for my singing

Group photo, what a close bonding we have!?

That's the Lion Dance performance, I'm a supporting crew, beating the drum =)

Paying respect to the VIPs...

Adrian (head), Reagan (cymbals), Me (drum), Zul (tail), Jordan (cymbals)

On the stage.... so nervous!

The superstar finally sings, full of confidence =)

The entrance of performers, lead by Me, and two other singers

Do i look like some kind of superstar?? haha!!

Interacting with audience from different sides.

~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/30/2008 04:22:00 PM

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Baby?? Dear??

until today, i now den realise.... i very scared to commit, to start a new relationship... very scared it might happen e same thing in future again.. cant promise any1 anything.. juz wanna remain as it is.. ya, juz follows whr my heart brings mi to... =)

its not tat im stepping onto 2 boats at a time.. when im ready, i'll be juz standing on the shore waiting for either 1 of the boats to come n fetch mi.. n bring mi to a place call HAPPINESS..

PiNky sOtoNg 7/29/2008 01:47:00 AM

Monday, July 28, 2008

26th July 2008, Saturday

Today has finally come. I'm going up on stage to perform a Chinese song tonight. Last night was on duty, so this morning after handed over, was damn tired and went to sleep straight after showering. When my phone finally rang at 2pm, it was the rehearsal before the actual thing in the evening. I woke up, and rushed over to where everyone else was at the MPC. When my name was announced and it was my turn to run through the song, I cocked up everything... My voice box was totally dry, closed, and couldn't project my voice at all. At that very moment when the Sound Engineer told me 'Mister, can you sing louder and project you voice please?' , my heart sank... morale totally gone. All along, I've been singing and practising on this song and then now I'm unable to sing it, due to the high pitches which I couldn't reached due to my tiredness... =X

After my song ended, commander talked to me, encouraged me... everyone encouraged me with some really nice words... but I myself know that it sucked alot!! How would this be? What am I going to do?? Ran all the way back to bunk, search through the folder for another song... time left was like 2 hours before the actual thing start... was almost on the verge of escaping reality... then I chose Chong Lai eventually as it somehows goes to mean 'restart/ all over again' , which perfectly describes me and her... Didn't had time to practice on that song at all as I need to shower, change into my performing clothings and styling up... But the heck cares bout that... Just gonna go up on stage and make a fool of myself in the end I thought.

Then Baby sent me an sms just before the actual thing, just before I was about to go up on stage and perform... this is what it says...

'Baby... Jiayou for ur singing performance... even if ur singing sucks, I still love it... =) '

So sweet of her... and it worked... at the end of the day, I enjoyed my performance, it was near perfect. No running out of the melody, no voice crack due to high pitches, and best was, my movement on the stage was so stunning. The usual me would have just stand there from the start till the end... but, I managed to walk around the stage, interacting with the spectators... won applauses in between breaks of the song... Wrapped up the whole this with a series of my usual humming of melodies... =)

Her sms really had affected me alot... I actually won the most applauses among all the other performers... So happy.... Baby, Thanks.... I Love You~

After the whole event, people start telling me how well I did... Great Job... things like that.. I guess they were really surprise by the difference of my voice during that final rehearsal in the afternoon and on the actual thing itself.... =) Most proud of all, is when the event is over and people starts leaving... Commander thanked me for putting up a very good performance, chief said I did a great job... and it shocked me alot when Commander Lancer actually stop me and shook my hand, talk to me and ask me some questions as follows...

Q1) Why do u like to sing? Is it a part time hobby or something?
ans: No sir, it's just that music's always been a great interest of mine. And I love to sing... because when I sing, people enjoy as much as I do....

Q2) Your vocal range's really wide... did you undergo any professional training?
ans: Yes sir, I went thru some basic singing training lesson by a famous teacher/song writer in singapore..

He wrapped things up by saying he'll be looking forward to seeing me perform again.... lol.. So proud lo... the others must be thinking of what were he telling me... haha =x

Was really tired after the whole thing, because the day after, I had to get ready, because I had another performance to go, this time the Lion Dance... Went back to room, showered and then brought my laptop to office and MSN with Baby... webcam and chatted the whole night till morning...

Its so great to be able to see her, hear her voice through mic and speakers... She actually stayed up to accompany me... because i had to wake up early but i decided not to sleep -_-" So nice of her to stay up just for me, so sweet of her for the things she said, messaged me... Loving her more and more each day, missing her every moment....

ps. If Baby's gonna read this, I just wanna say, I Love You.... and Thanks for the smll lil things you do for me... in the eye of others, they might be nothing at all, but in mine, its already everything!! Love u....

PiNky sOtoNg 7/28/2008 05:35:00 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

IM FREE N EASY!!!

shopping trip wif my sis..

Dinner 9.30pm, @ Pepper Lunch.

shopping trip ends 11.15pm.

omg, i look fat in dis pic.. anyway todAy i'Ve bOught 1 pair of hEels fr Charles n Kieth, 2 spAg strIp blOuses n a pAir of shOrts fr Cotton On. i'Ve spent onli $67.20 on these!! haha.. happy..

PiNky sOtoNg 7/26/2008 11:00:00 PM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

IM LOST..

ytd i've cried e whole day on n off.. until juz now, my dear juz went to work.. things goes like dis.. if taken e situation now, mi n my bf in future will hav probs.. somehow some1 comes in.. he really let mi think alot.. i cant blame him too, cuz he oso pouring out his heart.. so both went into my heart let result mi to think alot, alot n alot more.. dis few days or rather dis 2 wks, my close frens given mi different kinds of advice n suggestions.. somehow, i really dunno wat to do.. my bf give mi love, lots of love n care, but not security.. he give mi kind of soul security but he's not here.. sounds complicated rite? haha.. nvm, as long as i noe wat im toking.. i dun wan to make such a big decision at dis time for my future.. anyway my dear promise he'll do some changes n let mi c e results during a yr plus or 2 time till i decide.. n im taking degree next yr.. so settling down might b 2 yrs later??

ytd after my bf had seen his msg (of cuz he noes hu he is), he kinda ask mi.. so i think its time to tell him e whole true story....... from 9am till 3pm, we've been discussing, toking wat i wan, wat he wans.. at tat moment my heart really cant settle down, not to say to choose hu n hu.. but to give 1 another a chance to think thru.. so we've agreed to seperate for the time being.. we've cried.. very badly.. at tat point in time, wat we've done in e 4 yrs of dis relationship gush into my mind.. so sad.. very sad.. i noe i still cant leave him.. but i really need time to b alone..

after 3pm, we went cwp to watch movie juz like usual couple. but of cuz i knew tat our hearts is unsettled.. went back to my blk n tok again.. he tot im 2 timer? din care bout him n our 4 yrs relationship? i explained n im not.. i felt disappointed.. i've cried.. he understand.. n started blame himself for not building a good foundations wif mi.. tats y things turn out dis way... but i din blame him.. i mean feelings dis kind of thing, dere's no hu's rite hu's wrong.. juz follow..

at nite, i've been thinking.. hugging my dear.. i felt very bad.. very bad.. thinkin y i juz cant settle down n decide 1?? y i gt e feeling of lost?? if im not lost, i wun b thinking so much.. i dunno.. i really dunno.. im lost.. very lost.. i've hurt some1 hu loves mi.. how?? i hate myself for being so selfish.. really hate.. i cried... non-stop.. more worse.. crying n crying.. tears juz easily flowin out of my eyes, down my face.. i really hated myself..

i've cried until very tired.. i slept.. even in my slp, my heart seems to break down.. tears run down even in my slp.. heart breaking.. until dis morning, dear went to work.. he said alot of caring mi words, seems like wan to leave mi.. i've cried again.. swollen eyes.. n again n again cried .. while typing dis blog too..

both miss mi, love mi.. worry bout mi.. tell mi not to worry too much.. think too much.. but sometimes juz cant help it.. i need to think wats best for us.. need to think of each other feelings.. try not to hurt 1 another as much as possible.. i think im not a gal hu worth for some1 doing something for mi.. im bad.. really bad..

PiNky sOtoNg 7/23/2008 08:36:00 AM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

22nd July 2008, Tuesday

Been rather busy and this is gonna carry on till 27th July 08. In case u people are wondering what I'm busy at, I'll fill u in. Am selected for a singing performance, lion dance performance, on 25th and 27th respectively. Been rehearsing and rehearsing. Then there's this preparation for the incoming training frame which resulted in tonnes of paperwork. The tentage thingy in the MPC (multi-purpose-court) is really a big headache. How to decorate? What material? What kinda theme? so on and so on and we're only left with last 3 and a half days to finish it up for the D&D.

On the other hand, it's bout me and her. I know people will start cursing me for appearing out of nowhere and stepping into some other couple's relationship. I know there's no point for me to explain much. I've never stop thinking at all. Fact is, no matter how much I thought, there's no way I can do anything at the moment, and so applies to her too. Did I really appeared out of nowhere? Am I doing something bad?

Fact has it that, I didn't appear from nowhere all of a sudden. I've always been there even before I left for my work over in Borneo. Its just that, chemistry took place while I was back in Singapore in June 08 for my home leave. I didn't planned for anything. Why am I being called despicable?? That's a very hurtful word to use. It's such a coincidence that her relation with her bf has turned sour due to their personal reason... and I just happened to be there... u can say I went back to Singapore at the wrong time, but in the first place, I know nothing between she and her bf. Truth is my feelings has always been there, kept silent from most people, because I know, YES I KNOW, that she's attached. It was only after I left once again, that made her realise her feelings too. This kinda things, cant blame her too. Any normal girls would hope for someone to dote on her, love her, spare some thoughts for her, hold her hands tight when things happen, sense of security, happiness, blissfulness. But am I suppose to be blamed for her relation turned sour? Initially that was my concern, that I'll be destroying their relationship if I were to confess and express myself. However, I have to say that problem was already there even before my return... No one should be blamed. None.

I know what she wants, and am able to give her all she wants. I have the ability. I touched and crossed upon my heart to say that, what I've told her, are never just words. My only disadvantage that's misleading that those were words without action, is the fact that I am overseas, and I won't be around her at the moment. Physically I can't promise anything, other then shortening my tour. Now everyone's asking me, what the reason... am I suppose to tell everyone that I'm a bastard and destroyed someone else's relationship? That's not the case. I'm earning salary that's almost two times fresh diploma graduates... shortening my tour means lesser income... 6 months... 6 months is almost equivalent to 20K!! Am I not sacrificing? I know she needs me too. That's why I made my decision. There are some things which can't be bought using money, Love and Happiness is one.

I even told myself, this is not just gonna be about me and her alone. Its gonna be my family, her family, her friends, my friends, our friends too. Can u imagine marrying someone and his/her family members can't accept u? I'm doing all I can to try my very best to find out what has been going on on her part. I spent sleepless nights thinking bout our future. Yes, I know she wants a famliy of her own. This is the one thing that I've also always wanted.

Just before I left for Borneo, she requested for a hug. My reply to her was, 'it's not so nice' because I know very well that she's attached. I left... Alot of thoughts crossed my mind while I was in the holding area awaiting departure, in the air craft and even when I've already returned here. It was only when I read her blog , and got GR to help me confirmed some stuffs with her before I called her up and talked it out. Is it wrong of her to go after her own happiness? And is it wrong for me to do the same too? End of the day, it's HER happiness.

I didn't even ask her for a decision, knowing that it's gonna be unfair to her as I won't be around for her. At the same time, here I am, enduring and persevering, holding onto every branches that I can find, working hard for our future if there's any.. Since the day I came to Borneo, I left my cards back in Singapore. I survived on an average $250 per month on my remittance. Saved.... for? Can anyone imagine how lonely it is to be all alone in a total different environment, away from ur family and loved ones? Can anyone imagine how's the feeling like, when u cant even bring ur love one out for a meal, cant even give her a very simple hug, cant even get to see her??? I'm going through all these.

I'm not trying to tell u guys how great I am. But now that I understand and know how she feels towards me too, I have nothing to hide. Of course I'm happy. But following this, I have lots to worry about too. how to maintain this kinda long distance relationship? How to get along well with her family members? How to be there for her when she needs me most? All these are yet to be solved... -_-"

As for Gene, I'm glad u cared so much for ur sis... it's totally fine with me that u can't understand what happened at all... its totally fine with me that u think I'm being despicable... its totally fine with me that you're calling me a bastard... its totally fine with me that u won't like me.. Most important thing now is, ur sis really needs the both of u and ur younger sis care, support and company... Ur sis loves u two alot... I know u girls love her as much. I'm still holding on and standing strong on my stand. I love her...

p.s: U can never please everyone in the room, u can never have the best of both world... Only perseverance and time would be able to tell...

~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/22/2008 10:23:00 PM

Monday, July 21, 2008

Somehow, before signing the paper, i really started to think alot.. Suddenly felt tat my future is not secured.. money wise, educational, relying, working... everything n anything i felt not secure.. except his LOVE.. Yes, he treat mi very nice.. nice until it seems tat mayb dere's no other guy hu treat mi sooo good.. accepted how untidy i am (like sometimes i running nose i'll sinply grab his shirt n wipe, ya, its yucks!), how many pimples all over my face, how lazy i am, etc...

On tat nite of our discussion or somehow, quarrel, regarding our ROM. I really told him wat i really wan.. although it hurts, i still hav to say.. im practical.. i've waited for 4 yrs, n it seems tat we r still running on the same spot.. NO, its i am running forward, while he's running on e same spot.. I know i cant blame him for tat.. I can understand his family situation.. But somehow i juz cant accept..

He told mi to wait for him, to support him, work hard togather wif him n understand him.. yes, i'll understand.. i've been working hard, but i cant see his.. i dunno how long i can wait n support him.. 2 yrs? 3 yrs? or 5 yrs? or more?? i really dunno.. somemore he said tat its not a yr or 2 time.. ok den.. i'll wait..

During dis 2 weeks, i've been struggling.. i seem to see no future in us.. we've been discussing or quarreling quite often.. he said tat i've been listening to wat my mum n frens advice, n easily get influence, n say tat i think too much.. i dunno i think too much or i really thinking hard for my future.. he said we need to communicate more.. gt wat probs juz say it out.. but watever i say, he seems catch no ball.. at e same time again, he ask mi to support him n work hard togather.. omg.. dunno how to ans him.. i tot of us seperating a certain period n let us think wat we wan.. tats wat e advice fr my close frens too.. unlike most couples, all these 4yrs plus, we tok to each other for everyday even though we quarrel, within 2-3 hrs its settled.. tats wat i dun like, nv give each of us sometime to think thru..

N he said onli for the time being he gt money turnover? problem, but it doesnt mean tat in future he'll not b wealthy.. ok, i agreed.. lets leave aside $$ issue.. e other thing is tat relying? i cant imagine tat watever thing he's relying on mi!! watever documents in eng he'll ask mi to c n explain.. in resturants, i order food.. he doesnt know comp stuffs.. its not tat i xian qi him.. i juz wan a guy hu i can rely on.. really..

Really, i juz wan a hu i can rely on.. hu loves mi n of cuz i love him.. whr in future no need to worry bout money or communication breakdown issue.. now is loving, i dun wish tat becuz of money or other comm prob, loves becomes a burden..

PiNky sOtoNg 7/21/2008 05:18:00 PM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Saturday, 20 July 2008

Today's my off day. Went off out, to Gadong, The mall.
First thing first, I was suppose to wake up at 8am and prepare board the OFF VEHICLE at the pick up point. But!!! I overslept and woke up at 8.50am instead -_-" Was so rush!! Frankly, I shower without soap and shampoo =x Just anyhow splash only... then delayed the others for like 5 minutes~~ Lol... Luckily no one complains... haha!! Sorry guys...

Anyway, went to Gadong, The Mall. Shopping spree today. Bought some clothes and two pairs of shoes. To prepare for my performance, the singing performance coming soon. Spent like 200 over dollars? Ya... on food also. I bought an extra psp battery also. Cos always not enough to last me thru... haha... I'm a gamer!! =)

Anyway, I finally am at ease on mind... I've talked to her, told her what I want. She understands and we've cleared our doubts on each other... so good... so happy.... so relaxed now.

Not gonna be too wordy, these coming few days am gonna be quite busy with rehearsals on singing and lion dance... I suddenly feel so enriching!! I love this feeling... Thanks... =)

~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/20/2008 01:08:00 AM

Friday, July 18, 2008

That's gotta be Me & Ali

Me, receiving my prize and trophy from CMD's Hand

Roy, Gerald & Me

Me and the Referee Fadli

My 'daughter' and I (actually that's Si Yin, SSG Chung's kid)

The 2 finalist, Sing Wei & Me

That's me, Gerald in red cap and Roy

Bee Bee & Scorpion

Kun Kun & Bee Bee

Fadly & Me

Me & Aleem (Ali extra sia~~)

PiNky sOtoNg 7/18/2008 05:04:00 AM

The day started of with me receiving a call at 8 plus am, to attend the conference, standing in for Roy as he was not around in camp. As usual, rushed like hell... Run like a mad guy towards the conference room. It was regarding the Creative Day... TODAY IS CREATIVE DAY!!! I totally lost count of my schedule... -_-" Didn't even realise that I was suppose to be leading my team till last minute.. Hectic kick-start of the day... Anyway, I didn't sleep well last night... Some things were bothering me... my mind was empty...

Tonight was the my night. Its the Happy Hour for July '08. One of the main event was the 9-Ball Pool Championship, featuring Sing Wei and I, the last two man standing. Right from the start of the first game, I screwed up everything... The mood's not right... I wasn't putting in any effort to play it... I lost the whole game even before I knew it.. However, displaying sportsmanship spirit, I congratulate Sing Wei on being crowned the Champion of LC... I could only be the 1st runner up in LC.... anyway, it didn't really bother me much... really...

I called up her right after the game, talked for a while, hung up and then I just sat right there for like whole 10 minutes, once again, mind was blank... that kinda feeling really sucks... So unrealistic... so unnatural... so uncomfortable...

I've been thinking alot alot these few days since I came back from Singapore... I try not to let my emotion cross the line, I simply hide things to myself, carry on working as usual... maybe I'm trying to escape reality? Or could it be I'm just ignorant and don't know what to do? I really had no idea... Happy Hour ended and I went back for a shower... still brainstorming on what's going on in me... I have the problem, yet I have no solution to it at all... =x Called GR up and talk to him bout it, talked for quite some time... I derived at what should be done... He didn't tell me much either... just some casual comments... he couldn't help me at all either... Sigh...

I really didn't expect this to happen.... yet it did... running away was no solution, I have to face it all eventually... anyway I'm away from Singapore, I'm all alone... Except my two damn close buddy here in Brunei... =)

My conclusion was at such:

Would it damage me more if I chose to keep mum and nothing gets done, or would it hurt more if I were to speak it up and things turn ugly?? Will I regret at the end of the day??

Contradicting huh?? I feels that way too.. after much consideration, I've decided to speak it up... If it turns out unfavourable for me, at least I've pour out my heart, rather then to keep mum and then regret for the rest of my life. I'm not gonna bother on how people are gonna talk behind my back... Not gonna care how people looks on me... All I know is that I don't wanna regret at all, not at all!!

Time was 11.50pm when I started talking to Gerald as well as Roy. We all have our own problems... we talked bout our problems, our worries... Roy's case was worse then mine... yet mine isn't any better either. We are both EGO at hearts and are not willing to open up ourselves to the problem. Gerald was rather supportive... Gave alot of advice to both of us... At the end of the conversation, Roy has decided to re-submit his extension of tour... as for me, I am a little more clear about what I want, and how to go about expressing it.

Gerald's words strike me, 'Bee Bee, If you're gonna remain at the same spot where you are now, you'll never move on...'

I'm really happy that I've met Roy and Gerald over here... we're like one family, more then friends... we love each another, we care for each another.. When one is down, the other two will put in the effort to cheep him up, drink with him... I'm really thankful to have them around me... They made my LONELY world over in Borneo totally changed.... from what used to be in black and white, to how colourful it is now...

Thanks Roy, Thanks Gerald...

Time is now 4.29am, 18th July 2008... I've come up to my office to update my blog... I couldn't sleep anyway... Roy and Gerald were fast asleep.... I couldn't bear to wake them up... I needed to be alone anyway... So here I am... updating post... checking mails... I can't go any further, I need to start thinking again... I have to! I must!

Good night to everyone, those back in Singapore as well as fellow colleagues... Rest well...

p.s: When the whole world denies you, I'll still be standing firm right beside... just turn around and look at me, you'll find that the earth we're standing on is still rotating...
I don't wanna miss a thing....
I hope you too wouldn't....
~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/18/2008 03:56:00 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Last night was rather tired, that's why no post. Anyway, nothing much for ytd, just slacking around until night at around 10pm. Lee Siang came to our bunk with some alcohol he brought back from his LABUAN trip. Its called the banana split... one side is banana milk, 15ml with 15% alcohol, the other chocolate, 15ml with 15% alcohol too. That actually make up a total of 30% alcohol per shot glass... There were six shot glasses. We play dai dee... I lost once and had to drink it. IT WAS VERY NICE!!!! $33 for 6 shot glasses of 'banana split'. Lee Siang had 2, Roy 1, and Gerald 2. We finished up the six glasses of alcohol, and felt like, 'eh, not enough lehz... not high at all... so, Gerald suggested to use the same glasses again, but this time with Vodka and Beer, 15ml each... -_-" The taste was hell. Vodka itself contains 40% of alcohol, and the beer we mix with was special kind too... Think total alcohol percentage was like 45%?!? That's alot la~~

This time round, everyone was rather scare to drink.... the blend indeed sucks to the max. I guess all were praying hard not to lose any rounds. Results went like these...

1st round - LOSER Lee Siang
2nd round - LOSER Lee Siang
3rd round - LOSER Me =(
4th round - LOSER Me =( X2
5th round - LOSER Roy
6th round - LOSER Gerald (in addition, he had one extra 30ml shot on Vodka neat)

Lol... all ended up face red red... damn funny... boring ppl do stupid things!!
We had nothing to play with, only alcohol, which we kept alot with us..

This morning suppose to wake up at 6.30 to do taking over then at 7am was HLS (healthy lifestyle) ... I couldn't wake up despite have my alarm right beside me =x Pulled my damn freaking sleepy soul out of bed, and rushed like hell. Its already 7.05am!!! I missed the taking over, and HLS has commenced!! -_-"
Ran all the was up to the court, and saw that they had started doing the warming up.. joined in, no one questioned me... no one really asked me for resaon why I'm late... =) Guess my PR here still not bad... Haha.... played Captain's Ball today for HLS... My team was the champion out of the 4 total teams. We beat the 'obeased' team, the 'tall-men' team, and the 'youngsters' team...
It was my first time playing games with WO Alvin and WO Rothmat... they are old, but still energentic... lol.. GOOD GAME!

Then at 10am, start working in accordance to the new shipment beddings... sweat hell lots... Weather was killing each and everyone of us slowly... Nevertheless, guys from various department turned up to help us... we completed everything at 2.30pm. The 4 and a half hours were torturing... yet fun... though all were working very hard... but at least all of us sweat together, smoked together, eat together, get dirty together... I love this kinda bonding... =)

Direct boss not around today... feels so good, feels so easy... I hope its gonna be a good day that follows... I feel burning sensation over my body, especially shoulders and arms and my back, we were under the damn sun for the 4 hours plus, without our shirt on.. -_-" I guess its sun burnt! Painful painful painful. Anyway, In the process of working, I hurt my right ankle while pulling the stacker up slope... hurt my fingers when something dunno what came crashing down on it... back aching like hell.... am going to medical centre to dress bandage on it... hopefully the swell will go away asap... PRAYING HARD!!

*when I finally see ur true smile, that's the moment I know there's no more obstruction between us*
~ Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/16/2008 02:49:00 PM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

14th July 200, Monday.

Its our Dept's Cohesion Day.. so rare to see everyone in the department to wake up so early. We're to consume our breakfast for the day n the cook house, and menu was Burger with Milo.. =)
All were rather bored initially, because of the schedule for the day... Moving from places to places.

After breakfast, meet up at pick up point. That's where the bus will pick us up and proceed to out various destination. I wore a brown bermuda, a green T-shirt, a pair of sneakers and the cap I made at far east back in SG. With a sling bag, containing my most important PSP that's gonna kill my boredom along the way, my wallet, coin purse as well as my extra shorts and towel. Was planning to have a swim at one of our destination, Selapon River.

Our very 1st check point was the boat launch area. This is where most of our boats during exercises launch. Nothing much here, just a small river and a cemetery. Had my very first mozzie bite here, right on my ankle!! -_-" We travelled like half an hour, ust to spend like ten bloody minutes there =x
Next was the Selapon River. We had sandwiches ready made, and drinks available. While most of them changed into their shorts to get a lil cooling sensation from the natural river water, which flows down from a nearby mountain, me and a few others were sitting around, playing with our PSP, talking craps and happily eating the food. I changed my damn idea bout swimming the moment I reach the place. The water is so cold!!!! Raymond borrowed my shorts in the end...
The guys seem to really enjoy themselves at Selapon. Swinging from a rope and later release themselves into the river. I remember seeing Yasser swing naked!!! Lol... and the rope that he was clinging to accidentally cut his..... u know?? Lol... Other places includes Mini Zoo, which has a total of less then ten types of animals.. -_-" It's really mini for god's sake.. Haha... then there's this Piano Bridge, Lutoot Bridge, and a place where most of us indulge in picking up crystal stones, and all sorts of rare, hard-to-find stones and pebbles. MSG Chung was greedy, he pick a stone around the weight of 2KG!!! Faintz... For me, I managed to picked 3, one for myself, one for Gerald and the other for Roy, my suck cock buddies here in Brunei.

The event wraps up with whold lot of us having our dinner at the guest house of temburong, with a $3.00 Buffet.... super worth~~

Return to camp and saw Gerald and Roy inside bunk, they had abandoned me for Labuan, a place in malaysia where most guys here will visit, for the clubs, drinks, food, and of cos LUST!! Not bad though, they bought me a watch, and a bermuda, freaking cute la!!! Thanks guys~

Anyway, I've decided that my posts will not be uploaded with any pictures.. My main motive is to share with u all bout my life, happenings, and updates while I'm away from singapore, the pictures that I took, will share with u guys when I return to singapore again ya? =) Love you people so much... Miss my bike so much, hope YP will really take good care of it for me.. Thanks dude!

p.s: more updates, more interesting things to share with u people when i go for off again this coming weekend!

STAY TUNED!!!

~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/15/2008 07:43:00 AM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Went to sleep quite early last night, as I took all the pills
prescribed by the medical officer. Out of the four, three
causes drowsiness -_-"

I was woken up by a phone call this morning at 7.00am.
It was Khairul... asking me to wake up for our off-out!!
After hanging up, I dozed off again as usual..
When I finally climbed out of my bed reluctantly, it was
already like 7.20am... had to rush to wash up, collect
the clothes from the dryer, as well as shower...
Changed and sprayed the perfume Huiling and gang
gave me, styled up my hair, and off to the pick up
point, where everyone else was... damn lot of people
went for off today... LOL... rather fun though.

Went to Yayasan for breakfast along with Khai, Fad,
Sze Han... Had Hongkong tim sum there.. not bad..
after which proceeded to the jetty, took a super speed
boat to Kiulap, cos Fad suggested going for massage,
and everyone agree, didnt want to be a spoil spot..
so i went along. Anyway F.Y.I, the massage here are so
freaking painful. Think all the masseurs can go fight
wrestling... haha... Opted for the 1 hour session, quite
worth it though, was 30bucks..

After massage, was already around 12plus in the noon.
Went to the nearby shop that sells army stuffs. Bought a
Sling Bag at 27bucks, just a normal sling bag for my PSP
and wallet and stuffs like that.

Took a bus, No. 20 to Gadong, The Mall. Had our lunch
there. Ordered Maweke Udon (seaweed noodle) and a
side Sashimi. Delicious and fulfilling!! After that, continued
to shop around. Bought some badges for my bag and a watch.
The others spent like hell on clothes, shoes etc etc...
Slacking around after that, sitting down from place to place,
waiting for time to pass.

Time was 4.30pm when we left for Subok, the place where we
take the water taxi back to temburong. In the boat, saw this girl
sittng right opposite me. She was so petite, B~E~A~U~tiful...
Khai insisted she was a malay, but i know she isn't... She has got
to be a chinese. She's very very fair, had long straight hair. I did
glanced at her secretly, but I guess she knew, because she was
kinda smiling back at me for a while.. haha... SHE SMILED AT
ME!!! =) End of the day, i didnt approached her at all even after
we dis embarked at temburong...

Went to had dinner, Nasi Katok as usual... before heading back
to camp... Did some area cleaning, fold my clothes, went for
a shower and took my medicine. Rather bored in my bunk, as
Gerald and Roy has went for overseas leave to Labuan, the red
light district. So decided to go to Khai's bunk to talk cock with
them for awhile, and borrowed some DVDs from them.
Ended up here in the MESS using my lappy to msn with cat and
GR....

Its raining outside... I guess tonights gonna be another lonely
night for me, sleeping alone in the bunk, with no one to talk to
yet again... Sometimes I wonder, have I made the right choice?
Should I extend my term here?? For the money....... maybe I
really might... For time to come, shall see about it... Sigh....

~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/13/2008 10:08:00 PM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

I really didnt expect it to be that bad.
When I cough, my flam carries some blood on it,
when I sneeze, i feel so painful at my throat.
Whole body temperature rising..

Went to report sick,
took temperature and it was 38.2 degree Celsius...
They wanted to put a drip on me!! But knowing me,
I'm most afraid of needles and injections... who would
I approve of that. End up just get Paracetamol for my
fever, Antibiotics, pills for my running nose, and lozenges
for my inflammation tonsils...

I feel so sleepy, so tired... =x
My body feels lifeless...
am I dying soon??

God Bless Me

PiNky sOtoNg 7/12/2008 04:27:00 PM

Hey, peeps.. this is gonna be my very first post. 1st, I'm gonna tell u a lilmore bout my daily routines, before I go further into details. =)

7.00am - Woke up, have a stick of energy bar (cigarette) before Iproceed to shower and brush my teeth.

7.30am - Stroll my way up to my office, saw the Duty Officer there..didtaking over of my work area from him. Had another 2 sticksof energy bar.

8.00am - Saw most of my branch guys... all the big shots are going offout today.... NO GOVERNMENT DAY!!!!

8.15am - Here I am in my office, putting up my very 1st post =) Haha...
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I've just returned back from my indulgence leave from Singapore fewdays back, on the 9th of July '08. For personnels who're posted overseasfor a year or more, we are entitled with 1 X Home leave. The Indulgenceand the Bonus leave are depending on our performance thru daily work,IPPT results as well as code of conduct. Needless to say, I got my Indulgence,meaning to say, I've performed well enough, and deserve the short break!!

I went to lots of places where in the past I didn't find attractive, fun orenjoyable. Town, parks, Champions way... Except for this trip,I've been visiting KK Hospital quite frequently. To pick and send a friendfrom her work. Just a friend... -_-"

I've enjoyed the day where Catherine, Kai, Victor, Yingying, Jason, Shun Cai,Huiling and Yuxuan arranged at Zero-Point pub. Thanks for all your kisses,the gigantic welcome back famoua amos cookie, and of cos the time spent.Though I've longed to sing with Huiling again, but end up she didn't sing.Then there's this GAY working in the pub... keep on disturbing me. So I had nochoice, but to lie that I'm attached to Kai... she helped me thru though =)But why Kai?? Here's my explanation, Huiling's really attached to Denny,Yingying is Victor's wife.. Only left with Cat and Kai. Given Cat's personality,she would have killed me if I were to 'BORROW' her name. In anyway, I'm alsocloser to Kai ma... So Cat, don't be jealous la huh~

Then there's of cos my bunch of brothers and sisters from Riverside Sec.. They arenamely Guorong, Yongping, Juncai, Lester, Kiat Jiun (暧昧), Grace, Chu Ai (爱你不是两三天), Jasper, Ah Boy, and Guoxiong. We had fun eating out, pubbing,racing against each other in the arcade on Maximum Tune 4. Am very greatful myfriends still remembers me. GR, GX, LESTER, JC and I went to Zouk. Was freakingboring in there, so i went off earlier at ard 12plus am.

I went to touched up my tattoo, Grace was with me throughout. She spent almost all her off days accompanying me to places like Army Market for my badges, Far eastfor the DIY caps, Bugis for praying, Hougang to collect stuffs... So in return for herkindness, I volunteered to send her to work as well ass pick her up after work. Weare just friends... come on... -_-" She's getting married... I wouldn't wanna become a3rd party, destroying others relationships... I swear... I really am not the sort!!

I had food which can't be found that easily in Borneo most of the time when I'm inSingapore. Sushi, McDonalds, Subway, Pastas... also not forgetting Prawn Noodles,Wonton Mee, Chicken rice, Kway Chup and Tim Sum... drooling already.... shit!Back here in Borneo, food I take are by cookhouse NS chefs, Or IndoMee, a type ofmaggie mee... haiz... incredibly, I still manage to put on some weight.

Today is the second time I fell sick in borneo since I posted here. First time not so bad,had a super flu, mucus keep on coming out of my nose. But got well after a daytaking the medicine. Now very ChiaLat... super sore throat. Cannot eat, cannot drinkcannot smoke also... and I feel terrible... =x

Anyway, I'm not gonna drag this on too long, or it'll end up being real boring toread my blog.
I guess thats all for my 1st post?? Thanks for reading. Leave me some commentsif possible... and I really Love u guys~~!!

Take care and keep coming in for update on new posts!

Pictures might be uploaded soon. Waiting for them to send me.. -_-"

~Jun Tai~

PiNky sOtoNg 7/12/2008 08:46:00 AM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

when i handle this, im sxxks at it.

when it's gone, i've put my mind in ease.

BUT, it's so damn irritating HEAVY!!!

Argh......!!!

in e process of putting down.

PiNky sOtoNg 7/09/2008 10:04:00 AM