Its now 1.02am, 17th May 2009.
I'm feeling excited. Cos in no more than 8 days, I'll be able to see laopo.
I have so much to tell her.. so much so much.. but i dun alwasy get the chance to
do so, because she's busy.. and i understand. I'm missing her alot nowadays..
there's nothing i can do to stop myself from it.. Laopo seldom smile to me anymore.
I love to see her smiling.. Only when i am back for good, then only will things be
better for us. I really need her... alot.. I wonder what would i be without her.

She's getting better le, but still coughing. I know she dun like drinking water,
but i still hope u'll drink more.. it will really ease the irritation. She has a new room
to herself now at home. No longer have to sleep in the study room anymore. And I'm
happy for her too.

Alot has changed, after since i came back to brunei in late Jan.. but one thing didnt,
thats my love for her.. it stand as still as an acient rock, acting as my life pillar to
move on each day. I'm looking forward to everything we planned. Picking me up
at the airport, sending her to work, fetching her from work, bangkok trip, clubbing
night.. i just wanna spend my every moment with her when i'm back. I just love her
too deeply. Its all in my heart... and its written on my face.

There's currently alot of things going on.. i dunno where to start picking up from.
All i could do is to look forward to my end of tour. I feel cold... being alone. I hate
this feeling of losing her someday. I fear losing her. I wanna prove to her that i will
move on and am able to take care of her, support her. I am not gonna be a loser!
I know just how well my personality is, and i wun allow that to happen.

Laopo, just bear with me, hang on tight with me.. wait for my return like how u
promised me. I need your encouragement... your support... I love you more than anything
in my life.. the best chapters were those with u.. and the worse, is the current, where
i get no warmth.. from no one.. I'm trying my very best, to give u my all. Trust me..
i will not let u down.. I know right now, all i can give u are words, and no action.
But i have no choice. U've gotta keep on loving me.. have faith in me, in us. Dun lose
hope, dun lose confidence. Dun forget about me, dun ignore me...

I love you... i really do...

i miss ur voice, ur smiles, ur hugs, ur kisses, ur smell, ur everything... i miss you!
You'll always be my Sweetest, Dearest, Cutest, Honey, 宝贝，Baby, Darling, Fiancee, Laopo!
And hope to always be your Sweetest, Dearest, Cutest, Honey, 宝贝, Baby. Darling,
Fiance, Laogong.... you're my precious... one and only love.. i love you forever..

countdown: 7 days, 8 hours, 15 minutes... Laopo... hopefully, u'll be counting down tgt with me..